...are you still breathing?
i've had a lot of time to think these past couple days. me and b broke up for the obvious reasons. my best friend is gone.. we're going to be 11 hours away from each other. my last few days weren't exactly perfect with any of them either, but i think we're okay. and don't get me wrong there will be things i will never forget from my last summer before i start a whole new chapter of my life. i had so many of those moments that when you can just take a deep breath close your eyes and know that this is what life is all about.
biffy. i loved every single second of being attached at the hip with you. to think that there were periods of time when we didn't talk. i don't know what i did without you before. and now that college is coming i don't know what i'm going to do without you again. you're my perfect best friend and there has never been a time where i questioned our relationship. we connect, and that's so hard to find these days. i believe that college will not tear us apart. you will always be close to me biff. the time we went to sams in a snowstorm because my mom kicked me out, and you played her space holiday a song reminded you of me. the most beautiful song. how about the time we took those roadtrips to auburn, all for tomy? (why were we obsessed with him?) maybe the time we went to toronto and smoked tree at the DAFT PUNK CONCERT? the rides around monroe county with tex. the night before the last day of school at the community center. Dougs house after my grad party. the party at zachs when you only woke up to eat an oreo cakester. that night at toris when everyone was getting jiggy with it. you almost seeing tommy for me... (why would i ever put you through that). perhaps the many nights of laying low and talking about everything. TCB..y?. up bup? tory are you still, still breathing? and i would give anything just to go to wegmans one last time with you. i know.
b. i owe this kid so much for what he showed me this summer. i used to think i knew everything. this kid opened my eyes to so many ways. the way he takes things to heart. thinks into things that may not seem deep to anyone else. someone that knows what he wants. he knows who his friends are. and he makes a point of showing each of them that he cares. i opened my mind and thoughts to a lot of things when we were dating. i feel like a differant person now. i didn't have much of a choice though, not that it was a bad thing. the fact that one of my friends after so long of friendly conversations turn into something you'll never forget? how can you be put into that situation and not put a little more thought into everything else around you. it makes you on the lookout for new adventures and opportunities. i now know that the reason me and b were so perfect for eachother is because we needed eachother in the same way. since we were friends for so long before, he had already gained respect for me, and having memories and times and places in commen made things more comphortable. when things began we knew what we were getting ourselves into due to college in the fall. we both knew it would be worth it, and i couldn't have been more confidant than anything in my life. we're okay now. we're going to go to how we were before this summer. and it will be perfect.
toe. i'm glad that i could be there for you through this hard time. im glad we had the end of this summer to remember how much we loved eachother. i know now that we're going to be okay this time. i know we will stay in touch ill see you over breaks. we'll have next summer to do the same thing. summer can be our season from now on. thanks to jp. you have to give him some credit for our relationship. he brought us together. i will be forever greatful. tk... time's square can't shine as bright as you. i missed you so much. <3.
this has taken me soo damn long. i have so much left to say, but unfourtanatly i'm worn out and feeling slightly melancholy. so this entry will have to be completed sometime.. when i have time. peace.
biffy. i loved every single second of being attached at the hip with you. to think that there were periods of time when we didn't talk. i don't know what i did without you before. and now that college is coming i don't know what i'm going to do without you again. you're my perfect best friend and there has never been a time where i questioned our relationship. we connect, and that's so hard to find these days. i believe that college will not tear us apart. you will always be close to me biff. the time we went to sams in a snowstorm because my mom kicked me out, and you played her space holiday a song reminded you of me. the most beautiful song. how about the time we took those roadtrips to auburn, all for tomy? (why were we obsessed with him?) maybe the time we went to toronto and smoked tree at the DAFT PUNK CONCERT? the rides around monroe county with tex. the night before the last day of school at the community center. Dougs house after my grad party. the party at zachs when you only woke up to eat an oreo cakester. that night at toris when everyone was getting jiggy with it. you almost seeing tommy for me... (why would i ever put you through that). perhaps the many nights of laying low and talking about everything. TCB..y?. up bup? tory are you still, still breathing? and i would give anything just to go to wegmans one last time with you. i know.
b. i owe this kid so much for what he showed me this summer. i used to think i knew everything. this kid opened my eyes to so many ways. the way he takes things to heart. thinks into things that may not seem deep to anyone else. someone that knows what he wants. he knows who his friends are. and he makes a point of showing each of them that he cares. i opened my mind and thoughts to a lot of things when we were dating. i feel like a differant person now. i didn't have much of a choice though, not that it was a bad thing. the fact that one of my friends after so long of friendly conversations turn into something you'll never forget? how can you be put into that situation and not put a little more thought into everything else around you. it makes you on the lookout for new adventures and opportunities. i now know that the reason me and b were so perfect for eachother is because we needed eachother in the same way. since we were friends for so long before, he had already gained respect for me, and having memories and times and places in commen made things more comphortable. when things began we knew what we were getting ourselves into due to college in the fall. we both knew it would be worth it, and i couldn't have been more confidant than anything in my life. we're okay now. we're going to go to how we were before this summer. and it will be perfect.
toe. i'm glad that i could be there for you through this hard time. im glad we had the end of this summer to remember how much we loved eachother. i know now that we're going to be okay this time. i know we will stay in touch ill see you over breaks. we'll have next summer to do the same thing. summer can be our season from now on. thanks to jp. you have to give him some credit for our relationship. he brought us together. i will be forever greatful. tk... time's square can't shine as bright as you. i missed you so much. <3.
this has taken me soo damn long. i have so much left to say, but unfourtanatly i'm worn out and feeling slightly melancholy. so this entry will have to be completed sometime.. when i have time. peace.