And it is gone

[theburrahobbit]

I was a horrid mess yesterday. The reason? The novel was finished, and I printed it all out, and have now handed it over to Ayu. It might sound like an achievement, but anyone who's been working with something for this long knows what a loss it feels like. Despite August putting on a hilarious show at dinner (he was singing songs about Oscar Wilde, which wasn't too fun, but he made me laugh anyway) I felt like a smashed balloon afterwards. I sat in Ayu's room with my head to the manuscript and felt like crying. Then we talked about watching some film, so I went to the living room and checked what films we had. Then I just lay down in the sofa and was apathic. I guess it was silly, but anyway... At last Ayu came and then I started crying like a fountain, and it took quite some time for them to calm me down. We didn't get to watch a film though, as Oggy is bloody annoying and didn't want to watch what we wanted to watch. So at last I went to bed and tried to read, but was all too tired and drained. I promised myself that I didn't have to get out of bed ever again, really. I could stay there. Thankfully it felt better when I woke up.

Message? Don't get attached, I guess. And avoid becoming a drama queen. ^^