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so apparently I'm such a mess that I can't even make it to the therapists to un-mess myself. I accidently set my alarm on silent and then overslept. oh well. i rescheduled for Dec 2nd. haha, oh well, such is life i suppose.
I'm going down to Santa Cruz this weekend to see Roy. sometimes its hard being so far away from each other. I'm not sure how much longer either of us can take it, as much as we love each other. its not that things are bad, actually they are really good right now. its just...hard, he's looking for a job and for the most part trying to be more responsible. honestly that's all i wanted, for him to try a little harder. I'm making enough money to pay for things right now, and I can always take on more hours if I need to. so right now, I'm just taking things one day at a time, and not letting myself think about the future. in the words of Motion City Soundtrack, the future freaks me out.
I just wish I wasn't so damned tired, i have a thousand things to do and no energy to do them.
I'm going down to Santa Cruz this weekend to see Roy. sometimes its hard being so far away from each other. I'm not sure how much longer either of us can take it, as much as we love each other. its not that things are bad, actually they are really good right now. its just...hard, he's looking for a job and for the most part trying to be more responsible. honestly that's all i wanted, for him to try a little harder. I'm making enough money to pay for things right now, and I can always take on more hours if I need to. so right now, I'm just taking things one day at a time, and not letting myself think about the future. in the words of Motion City Soundtrack, the future freaks me out.
I just wish I wasn't so damned tired, i have a thousand things to do and no energy to do them.