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sometimmes i just wnat to go home. sometimes i want to let people know that there are more important things then getting drunk. like whether a good friend (or someone you call a good friend) gets a ride home while you bitch that they're taking too long and you're not going to get out until 1130 instead of 1115. big fucking deal, you stupid fucking alcoholic. how desperate are you? college is so fake. what made me think that a couple years and more alcohol would be the elements that would equal people growing up. i feel like i can't go out without getting drunk and when i don't feel like getting drunk i don't go out. and then i'm anti-social. give me a fucking break people. i guess I have my priorities messed up.
i guess i will probably take all that back at some point. some point when my back doesn't hurt and i'm not tired and pissed off at life. and when i don't miss yuri so much that it eclipes all the other shit going on.
i want a place i can go that's not school. back home i had my school business and then my home business with very few crossovers. there is no distinction here. there's no relief. i am always here. i am always with these people. even my room. god damn i have two other people living in a room probably smaller then my room back home.
i'm just tired with life right now. i want to be home, watching LOTR or star wars with yuri, sleeping in my own bed, and hanging out watching the world series with tony. i want to sleep in my own bed. i am so homesick. i am so homesick.
this wasn't supposed to be like this. it wasn't supposed to be so hard.
i guess i will probably take all that back at some point. some point when my back doesn't hurt and i'm not tired and pissed off at life. and when i don't miss yuri so much that it eclipes all the other shit going on.
i want a place i can go that's not school. back home i had my school business and then my home business with very few crossovers. there is no distinction here. there's no relief. i am always here. i am always with these people. even my room. god damn i have two other people living in a room probably smaller then my room back home.
i'm just tired with life right now. i want to be home, watching LOTR or star wars with yuri, sleeping in my own bed, and hanging out watching the world series with tony. i want to sleep in my own bed. i am so homesick. i am so homesick.
this wasn't supposed to be like this. it wasn't supposed to be so hard.