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i make my life so much harder for myself then it needs to be. i'm suffocating myself. which i suppose is helpful because at the end of the day the only person causing me pain is myslef. another reason to hate myself right there.
i'm treading water. i'm in quicksand. the harder i struggle the more i'm stuck. i don't know why i'm so unhappy. i don't knwo what's going on. i'm lashing out at people that definitely don't deserve it.
he doesn't deserve it. he just wants to help. but i don't just want to pour on him all the time. he says that's what he's there for but i can't do it. i can't be responsible for all of the negative energy and yet somehow i still am.
i'm drowning and all i can think to do is breathe. but that doesn't help when you're underwater.
i feel like i have the tools to make a change but i have no idea which one to use and when.
i'm treading water. i'm in quicksand. the harder i struggle the more i'm stuck. i don't know why i'm so unhappy. i don't knwo what's going on. i'm lashing out at people that definitely don't deserve it.
he doesn't deserve it. he just wants to help. but i don't just want to pour on him all the time. he says that's what he's there for but i can't do it. i can't be responsible for all of the negative energy and yet somehow i still am.
i'm drowning and all i can think to do is breathe. but that doesn't help when you're underwater.
i feel like i have the tools to make a change but i have no idea which one to use and when.