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In the past I have always just blown some things off as the way I am or the way I was brought up, or always have been. Today I did a lot of thinking and have realized that no, I really am kinda messed up. I strive for a sort of what I envision in my head as perfection and what I want to be and how i think that they are supposed to be. For example some foods I just think aren't supposed to go together and so i refuse to eat them together, even if it is probably really good. That's probably why I also have a difficult time with change. I'm done for now, I don't want to make myself think about this anymore then I am.