(no subject)
whats it all worth in a day
if you dont tell someone about it
whats it all worth
if its not better than someone else's prize
with my bread and my gold i can make twice as much as you
with my hair
i can go twice as far as you
whats it all worth in text
in the worlds largest library
indexed, scrollable, searchable
but im not really any bigger or better
if(because) i cant enjoy everyone elses life
because if we're all equal,
cant we equally enjoy eachothers decisions?
im lonely, and and
and heartily negated
ive got two feet
and hardly been banished
but its like a disease
how much thought goes into separation
how many decisions go into choosing your friends and demi-frienemies
with my two feet i have two arms
and two eyes and two hemispheres of my brain
i have skin and bones and muscle and fat
i hold water and food
intellegence and (physical) energy
i have tools (wheels, wood and wire frames)
and super-tools (engines)...(computers)
to help me out,
to bog me down
to drown me out and to -
( i can be wrong and right
and incorrect and semi(or fully)-obliged
to agree in cirrect or incorrect actions)
well drown everyone else out.
it is harder to say no
and to disagree than ever
(and these are the most true thigns i can say right now)
everyone is right,
everyone is entitled,
everyone is opressed by everyone and everything,
but free to be opressed and free to opress.
(slightly though. sub-levels and intricate particles of downward tricks and snags.)
i need a new thought bracket-
[little thorns.. just enough to prick and leave memories of where to avoid. everyone. everywhere]
not to say there are no fruits or flowers or little hummingbirds
there are
(and if you beleive)
([they are]we) are diminished.
i beleive things are wrongs
i beleive things can be wrong
so i can opress
i am capable of receiving criticism
(im not speaking that "i am mentally set". i can physically receive- i am in line waiting)
work where you can be a service to humanity and earth
live as a living part of your world
move as your body allows it.
time allows more and more (thought eventually less and less)
open eyes and think... close eyes and think
multitask and think
and think about multitask
move backwards through a day
throguth a month
say the month and year you are in, once a month ( maybe this will help me remember life-time-markers)
are these orders?
are you telling me to do these things?
can anyone tell me what to do?
is anyone worth listening to
if they tell you what to do?
are you, yourself worth listening to
and i worth listening to myself? (activily asking myself the previous question)
small audience,
i am a smaller audience
but much more important right now.
so now that im through feeling twelve for the day
( i let that out almost ten minutes ago now )
i can think i am similar
but diffrent to anyone next to me
can i let go?
i can hardly even grow my own nails.