Looking Foward and smiling

[thebrokentao]

I keep wondering why I spend so much time irritated and negative in the past few months. I don't think it was someone else's fault. I think I let things try and deride me from who I am. I have always beleived in the ideas and concepts that go along with Taoism. Mind you I am not a scholar on all of the strictures of the taoist concepts, but I know the most important part of it, and that is that things happen as they do, and energy flows as it will. Therefore knowing everything about it would be impossible for everyone will have to interpret taoism different for we are all our own individuals. But it is about energy it is about learning and about being who you should be. The more I tried to push myself towards things because of those around me I kept forgetting to be me. That is why taoism to me is difficult to walk, but also very interesting. You flow with the way things are, but with humans and how we interact you can't just let things pass by you, people won't always respond well to it and you will lose alot of valuable experiences that way. Instead I must remember I am who I am and I am doing what I feel is right, and as long as I remain conscious of that, and accepting that the things I may want are not what I should have, means I can look at those poeople and situation I hope to bring into my life, and realize that I did so regardless of the outcome. That they influenced me and my life as I needed to be influence, even if it wasn't as I specifically wanted, so eventually someone will bring to me what I need and I want.

I am happy with the outcomes as they have taught me something or revived something in me. My energy is more solid now and I am happy about it.