I cant hold my own or your interest
So what the fuck is going on
Theres a whole lot of craptastic situation but for some reason its just not really registering
My dads gone for 3-5 days and i shouldnt even be talking about it but i should really resent him like hell for it, if only just for leaving me and christina here with mom for that long while we have no idea whats going on or what has been going on and i think im owed a fucking explaination sometime soon.
shit, anyways
I know things arent working out and i know that things are being kept from me and i mean it sucks. I get so tonguetied whenever i get a chance to make it not suck. I tell myself im going to be dynamic and exciting and like nothing anybody has ever seen before and it just doesnt happen, cause i just dont know what to do with myself. I cant help but think that yet another time im going to take second place as soon as something better comes up, or even before something better comes up.
yes better, cause thats what it comes down to. even when im the only one running someones always expecting something better to come along because they think theres something wrong if im the best they could find. fuck it im already second place to someone who might not even exist, but hes got them more convinced than i do cause apparently i just scream second rate. and thats fucked but that keeps being the case. but i mean what can i do? i can only offer the best i have.
its not your fault that it happens. I just hate that it does.
ah well the tragic lives of the semi-wanted. they go on and thats about it
Not to name names and be catty but someone somewhere is a manipulating bastard, and he should stop being such a parasite and start resembling the species. leave my friends alone, whoever you are.
Thanks those that have been good to me and sorry if ive been a dick. its been a rough week and i dont deserve friends like you guys. you guys are my heros.
on a good note
Kerry did good. rah rah rah
now that that silliness is done im going to bed
Theres a whole lot of craptastic situation but for some reason its just not really registering
My dads gone for 3-5 days and i shouldnt even be talking about it but i should really resent him like hell for it, if only just for leaving me and christina here with mom for that long while we have no idea whats going on or what has been going on and i think im owed a fucking explaination sometime soon.
shit, anyways
I know things arent working out and i know that things are being kept from me and i mean it sucks. I get so tonguetied whenever i get a chance to make it not suck. I tell myself im going to be dynamic and exciting and like nothing anybody has ever seen before and it just doesnt happen, cause i just dont know what to do with myself. I cant help but think that yet another time im going to take second place as soon as something better comes up, or even before something better comes up.
yes better, cause thats what it comes down to. even when im the only one running someones always expecting something better to come along because they think theres something wrong if im the best they could find. fuck it im already second place to someone who might not even exist, but hes got them more convinced than i do cause apparently i just scream second rate. and thats fucked but that keeps being the case. but i mean what can i do? i can only offer the best i have.
its not your fault that it happens. I just hate that it does.
ah well the tragic lives of the semi-wanted. they go on and thats about it
Not to name names and be catty but someone somewhere is a manipulating bastard, and he should stop being such a parasite and start resembling the species. leave my friends alone, whoever you are.
Thanks those that have been good to me and sorry if ive been a dick. its been a rough week and i dont deserve friends like you guys. you guys are my heros.
on a good note
Kerry did good. rah rah rah
now that that silliness is done im going to bed