Aug 19, 2010 01:10
Hi gaiz.
Long time right?
I'm finding it increasingly difficult to write things online. It's a combination of lack of interest, having nothing good to report, and feeling exposed.
So, what's been happening with me lately?
I moved into a different apartment. I live alone now. Kinda lonely sis.
When I moved in I quickly discovered the new building had bed bugs. Pretty terrifying. I kept having dreams of bugs crawling in my ears, or having people see me as some sort of roach infested scumbag.
I've been extremely inactive this summer. I barely worked at all. I attended a few summer classes.
I have about a year and a half left of my degree. I'm not sure where it's going to lead me.
I didn't register for classes until today. I ended up with a pretty shit schedule, but it serves me right honestly.
I think I've changed a great deal this year for the worse. The disintegration of my last relationship left me bitter, I drove all my friend away. Whoopz. And now I feel sooooo... ostracized? I've also noticed a great disorganization in my life. I can't keep a regular schedule. I can't write straight sentences. I usually can't maintain focus on any one thing for a while.
I'm not sure if it's something I can bounce back from. At points I've felt like I was "too far gone" to rejoin social society. Pretty freaky right? Maybe I'm being dramatic.
I want to pursue music now more than ever. We'll see if it happens.
Wanna hear a joke?
My french professor told us this in class one day.
There's these two cats, one is english and one's french. They're named one two three cat, and un deux trois cat. They decide to have a race across a pond, who wins?
one two three cat, because un deux trois quat cinq.
That's pretty great, right?
My classes for next semester are criminology, a 15th century middle english class, an 18th century english class, comparative politics of the global south, and a philosophy class on skepticism.
I'm not really looking forward to any of them.
I keep getting this feeling like I want to delete this whole entry and maintain my silence. I wonder if I'm sharing too much. I wonder who will read this and what they'll think, if anything.
I'm getting sort of fat lately.
Not fat as much as out of shape.
I might date this girl I don't really like just because I want to be in a relationship.
I sort of stopped being a vegetarian.
I just stopped caring one day and got into the habit of eating meat.
I don't know where i'm going with any of this. I think I'll just stop.
-Love ya, Breton