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well
its taken over a week to be able to write this entry
and yeah................it will be long
a week ago from last sunday i was on top of my game. i won poker night with the guys, turned 20 bones into 400 bucks in a day, stayed in the Athenium Suites in Greektown for free and was wined and dined by a big 4 accounting firm, was visited by my favorite men (jim, joe and jeff), and witnessed the lions beat the undefeated falcons on the road to become 3 and 1.
shortly after the end of the game i got a call from megan saying caleb (our little brother. one of the twins. just 12 years old) was in the hospital and not feeling so well. he was weak and throwing up. first diagnosis was meningitis. spinal tap came back negative so thye believed it was viral meningitis. That menat he would be ok in time and his body would fight it off.
around 8pm i got a call from meg saying to get in my car and start driving south to pick up rachel because caleb was in critical condition and moved to the pediatric intensive care unit. so i drove the longest 2.5 hour drive of my life. me and rachel, my sister-to-be got to detroit around 10pm to find that caleb had been diagnosed braindead. after 12 hours they would do tests to see if there was any brain activity. if there wasnt, they would pull that plug.
i spent that night in the hospital. i spent a lot of time in prayer and a lot of time crying. we sang some worship songs around his bed and prayed for a miracle. jacob, stacey, rachel, granna, kendra (kims sister), and the boyfriends went home for a couple hours of sleep before the test but kim, jerry, megan, and i stayed the night. ...not that i could sleep.
and in the morning we found out that caleb passed away. ive always hated the term "passed away" but i just cnat say caleb died. it doesnt seem real. maybe im so distant. maybe im in denial. maybe i hate the word "died". i made a lot of phone calls for the family. it was hard because noone could believ it was caleb. he was in school that week and even was at soccer practice that thursday.
the visitation was thursday and the funeral was friday. the spport was overwhelming and the fellowship from our churches at cmu and faith completely surrounded us.
i thought i could write this out but i cant
ill stop here
its frustrating because i cnat express having a complete broken heart. its not an "i lost my girlfriend" thing
i lost a brother for life. its hurts in a lot of places
i dunno
im done with this post
its taken over a week to be able to write this entry
and yeah................it will be long
a week ago from last sunday i was on top of my game. i won poker night with the guys, turned 20 bones into 400 bucks in a day, stayed in the Athenium Suites in Greektown for free and was wined and dined by a big 4 accounting firm, was visited by my favorite men (jim, joe and jeff), and witnessed the lions beat the undefeated falcons on the road to become 3 and 1.
shortly after the end of the game i got a call from megan saying caleb (our little brother. one of the twins. just 12 years old) was in the hospital and not feeling so well. he was weak and throwing up. first diagnosis was meningitis. spinal tap came back negative so thye believed it was viral meningitis. That menat he would be ok in time and his body would fight it off.
around 8pm i got a call from meg saying to get in my car and start driving south to pick up rachel because caleb was in critical condition and moved to the pediatric intensive care unit. so i drove the longest 2.5 hour drive of my life. me and rachel, my sister-to-be got to detroit around 10pm to find that caleb had been diagnosed braindead. after 12 hours they would do tests to see if there was any brain activity. if there wasnt, they would pull that plug.
i spent that night in the hospital. i spent a lot of time in prayer and a lot of time crying. we sang some worship songs around his bed and prayed for a miracle. jacob, stacey, rachel, granna, kendra (kims sister), and the boyfriends went home for a couple hours of sleep before the test but kim, jerry, megan, and i stayed the night. ...not that i could sleep.
and in the morning we found out that caleb passed away. ive always hated the term "passed away" but i just cnat say caleb died. it doesnt seem real. maybe im so distant. maybe im in denial. maybe i hate the word "died". i made a lot of phone calls for the family. it was hard because noone could believ it was caleb. he was in school that week and even was at soccer practice that thursday.
the visitation was thursday and the funeral was friday. the spport was overwhelming and the fellowship from our churches at cmu and faith completely surrounded us.
i thought i could write this out but i cant
ill stop here
its frustrating because i cnat express having a complete broken heart. its not an "i lost my girlfriend" thing
i lost a brother for life. its hurts in a lot of places
i dunno
im done with this post