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good weekend. although i'm feeling blah. i guess sundays are always pretty lame. except i'm feeling worse than blah. homework i can't get myself to do. a room i cant get myself to clean. conflicting emotions i cant convince to agree. fucking like i'm so unsure about things.. that i cant talk about on eljayy.
fuck.
i just don't know. i just want to make sure i'm making the right decision. and i feel like i'm not. i don't want to be there and be concerned. i want to feel free of worries. i can't bring that shit with me. likee isn't that the most world wide known mistake. like everyone who's ever seen real world knows what happens. and fuckin i trust myself. but. ugh. shit. this is so vague and ambiguous to anyone and everyone reading it. and it isnt making me feel any better writing it down cuz i can't really write what i'm talking about. YAYY. LIVEJOURNAL SUCKS BALLS.
and i want to feel one way. but i feel another. and positions switched. andd and i think its healthy to get like this and question everything going on in my life because after all..
that is my life
but he's gonna hate it. and hate me for it. and i hate that.
damn.
ijaijdklsajd. fuck rachel. figure your shit out. you had this under control.. momentarily.
fuck.
i just don't know. i just want to make sure i'm making the right decision. and i feel like i'm not. i don't want to be there and be concerned. i want to feel free of worries. i can't bring that shit with me. likee isn't that the most world wide known mistake. like everyone who's ever seen real world knows what happens. and fuckin i trust myself. but. ugh. shit. this is so vague and ambiguous to anyone and everyone reading it. and it isnt making me feel any better writing it down cuz i can't really write what i'm talking about. YAYY. LIVEJOURNAL SUCKS BALLS.
and i want to feel one way. but i feel another. and positions switched. andd and i think its healthy to get like this and question everything going on in my life because after all..
that is my life
but he's gonna hate it. and hate me for it. and i hate that.
damn.
ijaijdklsajd. fuck rachel. figure your shit out. you had this under control.. momentarily.