I had an interesting reaction to criticism by one of my close friends and coworkers. She told me and I was outraged inside, but didn't show it. I just avoided her after that for a time under the pretense of work. What I think is completely different than what my coworkers think. She said that I don't pay attention and that is really annoying. She was trying to describe how I don't pay attention, but I couldn't listen. Her reasoning was a generality of what my coworkers thought, not a specific person's voiced feelings and thoughts for this reason. She didn't tell me exactly what they said to her. She started on this road, but I couldn't bear to listen. I try not be credulous, by asking why and how, but I had an immediate reaction to her criticism. I became angrier after I asked why. Just as I have read in "How to Win Friends and Influence People", I became defensive when I heard her complain, criticize, and condemn. She didn't use strong words, but I got the idea that it was a bad thing. I can't even describe it, because I went back to work, before she could finish explaining herself. I was so angry and defensive. I hate those emotions of mine.
There is always frustration when your expectations are different than reality. This I learned from my boyfriend. I don't like frustration, but my boyfriend says that he likes frustration and confusion. He views it as a challenge, while I few it as a hassle. It's the negative view of frustration and confusion that gets me upset and make me want to write about it in Live Journal, lol. So after work this morning, I sipped on some hot cocoa, read the comics and art section of today's paper, and unscrambled some words to solve an answer to a joke. It calmed me down. I went into my own space, so that I wouldn't bring those emotions home with me. Now I am able to look at the emotions while not in them; though while I write about my emotions, part of me goes back to the feelings.
On a side note, I used the Word of the Day from www.dictionary.com in my entry. The word is credulous. Here is an interesting quote.
"Unless our educational system focuses more on teaching students how to think than on what to think, our populace will become increasingly credulous." - Theodore Schick Jr., "The End of Science?", Skeptical Inquirer, March/April 1997.
I believe this to be true from my personal experience. I learned in my critical thinking class in college how to think. I question others' opinions and find their fallacious logic. The populace believe surveys, statistics, the media, without questioning the parameters of the study, or even the meaning of the word that splits a populace's opinion one way or another. I would love to question and argue more often, but that would require much research. I get frustrated with research, because there's not enough good stuff that is easily accessible. Just one quote based on another quote based on some reference by this scientist. I want to ask what are the scientist's credentials? What year was the study done? I would love to study statistical studies more to know if the statistics I'm hearing are valid. Eh, whatever...interesting to think about; but not a useful tool with the ever-increasing credulous populace. The masses, the ones that vote, and don't act. That is the mind set that I am concerned about.
On another side note, I read that a dance/drama adaption of Edward Scissorhands is playing at the 5th Avenue Theatre through May 13th. There are no words, just visual and auditory clues to express the wonderful themes from the movie by Tim Burton. I want to see it bad. Anyone interested? Inquire at
http://www.5thavenue.org/show/EdwardScissorhands0607.