Mormon Dance
Last night I went to a Mormon dance in Tacoma and had a lot of fun. I called three people who I had met at that same dance last year. They are Ryan, Cynthia, and Desiree. Ryan brought his little girl Angelina. I met Desiree's friends Stacy, Kelley, Alicia, and Rachael. I reintroduced myself to a guy named Derek and met another guy named Nathan. I got their contact information.I also met Lina, Chad, Tom, Grace, and Loni. I saw Junior again. I hope to make them my friends, but I have to find some Mormons that are understanding and not going to try to get me to go to church. I enjoy their company, because they have standards. It's nice to not be hit on, listen to dirty jokes or swearing, and talk about things other than sex. I just want some nice clean fun sometimes. That's why I go to the Mormon Dance. I had a lot of fun. Ryan brought his little girl Angelina, which is strange. I had fun. We played tag, ring around the roses, sang the week song (Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday...), and we danced. She gave me a glow stick and I put on my head like a crown. I told her that I was a Queen, but nobody knows so she has to keep a secret. She said she was good at keeping secrets. She's six years old and is adorable. I love midgets, I mean children.
After wards, I went to Denny's with Chris, Emil, and David. I ran into Kenny who I haven't seen in months. Kenny is intriguing. He can sense things about people. I gave him a ride home about 4 in the morning and we had a great conversation. He asked what I learned since we talked last year. I told him I've learned to be more adventurous, to not take things personally, to do my best, to change for myself (not for others), to be impeccable with my word, and my confidence has been building. I talked about Travis a little bit. As I continued to talk, he could feel that I was getting depressed and he asked why. Then my eyes started watering. He said that it's okay to cry in front of him. I just didn't want to cry. I know I could cry in front of him, because he's understanding. I said I am still healing and I didn't think it would take this long. I think I am afraid to start another relationship, because I don't want to make my significant other angry. I don't want to be vulnerable. Kenny said that love is about being vulnerable. I am building up my confidence that was stripped bare in my relationship. I do not blame Travis, because I chose how to react to his anger. Kenny said that Travis was vulnerable, because he let me get to him and became angry.
I loved Travis very much and I still love him. Kenny said that I need to find a happy thought that doesn't have a negative thought with it. I told him I was proud that my car was cleaner, because when I was with Travis the car was dirty. He said it's a happy thought, but it reminds me of how dirty it is. Then Kenny and I listed a lot of happy thoughts and how to be like a child. Make sound effects, play with toys, do random things, color, use your imagination, ask why. I actually do quite a few things of that already. Kenny reminded me of that and I felt very happy on the way home.
Even though I am writing about good things that I learned, I am so bitchy right now. I thought that I was supposed to go to Bellevue to drop of my friend's car and drive her back. She said she sent me a text message at five this morning saying we were going at 4 pm tomorrow. I said it didn't say the day. I was expecting to get it out of the way today. Now, I have to adjust my plans and rush other shit. On top of that, I will admit that I am horny and hungry. This company makes for a straight forward Jessica with a sailor's mouth. I feel like playing a game.
After wards, I went to Denny's with Chris, Emil, and David. I ran into Kenny who I haven't seen in months. Kenny is intriguing. He can sense things about people. I gave him a ride home about 4 in the morning and we had a great conversation. He asked what I learned since we talked last year. I told him I've learned to be more adventurous, to not take things personally, to do my best, to change for myself (not for others), to be impeccable with my word, and my confidence has been building. I talked about Travis a little bit. As I continued to talk, he could feel that I was getting depressed and he asked why. Then my eyes started watering. He said that it's okay to cry in front of him. I just didn't want to cry. I know I could cry in front of him, because he's understanding. I said I am still healing and I didn't think it would take this long. I think I am afraid to start another relationship, because I don't want to make my significant other angry. I don't want to be vulnerable. Kenny said that love is about being vulnerable. I am building up my confidence that was stripped bare in my relationship. I do not blame Travis, because I chose how to react to his anger. Kenny said that Travis was vulnerable, because he let me get to him and became angry.
I loved Travis very much and I still love him. Kenny said that I need to find a happy thought that doesn't have a negative thought with it. I told him I was proud that my car was cleaner, because when I was with Travis the car was dirty. He said it's a happy thought, but it reminds me of how dirty it is. Then Kenny and I listed a lot of happy thoughts and how to be like a child. Make sound effects, play with toys, do random things, color, use your imagination, ask why. I actually do quite a few things of that already. Kenny reminded me of that and I felt very happy on the way home.
Even though I am writing about good things that I learned, I am so bitchy right now. I thought that I was supposed to go to Bellevue to drop of my friend's car and drive her back. She said she sent me a text message at five this morning saying we were going at 4 pm tomorrow. I said it didn't say the day. I was expecting to get it out of the way today. Now, I have to adjust my plans and rush other shit. On top of that, I will admit that I am horny and hungry. This company makes for a straight forward Jessica with a sailor's mouth. I feel like playing a game.