i just don't know what to do with myself.
i'm alone at the circ. desk. there's no one around.
i'm starving. i haven't eaten in two days. hopefully i can make myself eat later. it's not that i don't want to. i just don't think i can choke anything down.
i'm numb from last night. honestly. i don't know if it's sunk in yet. i know i'm angry, somewhere. who does that to their girlfriend? who accuses them of something so cruel. all those messages, all of them telling me he 'knows' i've got justin there. telling me i'm an amazing person except for this.
oh, and the text messages telling me how he's drunk. that makes it even better.
this is exactly why i can't handle christopher or this relationship anymore. i can't handle someone else being so broken up over something i never did. i REALLY can't handle this.
i can't handle always having to be the strong one. always having to not give in to my own emotions because the other person in the relationship is a walking ball of raw nerves. i guess yet again, i'm on my own. all on my own to handle my problems.
but hey, that's how it's been for a while now. even being in this past relationship, i had to handle my own problems because the promises of help never came through.
no more. i don't think i want any more relationships. i'm just going to stay single. i have to do this all on my own. no one is going to help me, ever.
i'm starving. i haven't eaten in two days. hopefully i can make myself eat later. it's not that i don't want to. i just don't think i can choke anything down.
i'm numb from last night. honestly. i don't know if it's sunk in yet. i know i'm angry, somewhere. who does that to their girlfriend? who accuses them of something so cruel. all those messages, all of them telling me he 'knows' i've got justin there. telling me i'm an amazing person except for this.
oh, and the text messages telling me how he's drunk. that makes it even better.
this is exactly why i can't handle christopher or this relationship anymore. i can't handle someone else being so broken up over something i never did. i REALLY can't handle this.
i can't handle always having to be the strong one. always having to not give in to my own emotions because the other person in the relationship is a walking ball of raw nerves. i guess yet again, i'm on my own. all on my own to handle my problems.
but hey, that's how it's been for a while now. even being in this past relationship, i had to handle my own problems because the promises of help never came through.
no more. i don't think i want any more relationships. i'm just going to stay single. i have to do this all on my own. no one is going to help me, ever.