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Medium: BooksFandom: Harry PotterSubject: Draco/HermioneTitle: In a Million Little PiecesWarnings: Spoilers for Broken by inadaze22. Notes: This was made for the fanfiction Broken by inadaze22 (with help and suggestions from her on the fanmix). I suggest you read the fanfiction before looking at this or look at this and read the fanfiction...either way just read the story. Art made by the lovely and talented
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o1. Mercy by OneRepublic
All I wanted to say
All I wanted to do
Is fall apart now
All I wanted to feel
I wanted to love
It's all my fault now
It's tragedy I fear
"As her head spun and her heart ached from the memories, Hermione promptly banished all thoughts from her mind and squashed the memories before they became too much to handle. Memories like those had never done her any good those days, anyway. She probably would’ve Obliviated herself a long time ago if she knew she could do it to herself without losing everything - well, it wasn’t like she hadn’t lost it all already."
o2. Breathe Today by Flyleaf
So many lies swirling
Around you
You're suffocating
The empty shape in you
Steals your breath
You're suffocating
"The horror that was the lunchtime rush was upon the restaurant and the waitresses looked about as haggard as Hermione felt, but they, at least, managed to hold a smile.
She’d failed in that mission as soon as she sat down because, right then, all she wanted to do was cry.
But she refused to shed the tears.
Not in public.
Not where she was most vulnerable.
She closed her eyes, hoping to hold the tears in her eyes just a bit longer."
o3. Someday by Nickelback
Someday,some how
I'm gonna make it alright
But not right now
I know you're wondering when
"A very small, almost microscopic part of her wanted to swallow her pride, get up, walk over there, and apologise for the things she’d done and hadn’t done, and hoped that they forgave her before the next millennium-what the fuck was she thinking?! That was the stupidest idea in the history of ideas; so stupid Hermione silently berated herself for being an idiot.."
o4. Missing You by Tyler Hilton
And I ain't missing you at all
Since you've been gone away
I ain't missing you
No matter what my friends might say
"One could say that Ron wore his heart on his sleeve, but that wasn’t exactly true. She might have noticed them late, but Hermione had known as early as Fourth Year that he’d had feelings for her, but he never said a word about them. She had known so much about him by the time that they had started dating that she knew when he was restless, knew when he was afraid, and knew when he wanted to talk to her something important."
o5. And the Hero Will Drown by Story of the Year
The night will come
And rip away
Her wings of innocence
Through every word we say
Maybe it's time
To spit out the core of our rotting reunion
Hopefully before it chokes us to our senses
"But mostly, he jumped because he didn’t want her to die."
o6. Lack of Color by Death Cab for Cutie
I'm reaching for the phone
And on your machine I slur
A plea for you to come home
But I know it's too late
I should have given you a reason to stay
Inquisitively, Hermione touched his shoulder, "What's wrong, Harry?"
Green eyes pierced through her browns, "I'm just starting to realise something, that's all."
She probably shouldn't have asked her next question, but Hermione ignored the little voice that told her to walk away from him. "What?"
"I made a mistake, ‘Mione," Harry confessed gravely.
Confusion swept across her features. That certainly wasn't what she had expected him to say. "What do you mean?"
Her best friend took a hard breath and looked away, "I should've never let you go."
o7. Chasing Pavements by Adele
Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads no where
Or would it be a waste
Even if I knew my place
Should I leave it there
Draco Malfoy had obviously broken his previous code of silence.
She was surprised that there was still a ceiling over their heads.
“You cannot be serious, Mother!” the wizard snarled.
Narcissa seemed beside herself with tears and frustration with her only son. “What do you expect me to do, Draco? I cannot give up on him! I will not! Don’t ask that of me!” She defiantly shouted back.
“I’m not asking to you to do anything except be reasonable about this! You can try and try, but you can’t save him! You can keep him on the machines forever, but it won’t change anything! He won’t ever come back! Never! You heard what they said! It’s time for you to be realistic! It’s time for you to be-”
“I am being reasonable about this! What do you want me to do? Abandon him? I-”
“Seven percent, Mother!” He yelled at her. “He has a seven percent chance of surviving this! Seven!”
His mother kept her lips tight when she snarled. “Seven is not zero, and it would do you well to remember that.” And then she fixed a stubborn look on her anguished face. “All hope isn’t lost.”
Malfoy scoffed, “Well, it looks pretty lost to me.”
o8. Coffee and Cigarettes by Michelle Featherstone
But it's true
I'm still blue
But I finally know what to do
I must quit
I must quit you
To be honest, Draco was glad that Hermione hadn’t figured out how she felt about him.
If she had, they would’ve jumped into a relationship and things would’ve fallen apart quickly. They would’ve been two fucked-up people in a fucked-up relationship. They would’ve have had to deal with their mutual issues, his worries, her uncertainties, his reluctance, and her fears. She would’ve had to deal with the real Draco: flawed and stubborn, lost and ready to be found. It would’ve been too much…for them both.
It was better this way.
o9. 23 by Jimmy Eat World
I felt for sure last night
That once we said goodbye
No one else will know these lonely dreams
No one else will know that part of me
I'm still driving away
And I'm sorry every day
I won't always love these selfish things
"You're mad that she supposedly aborted the Weasel's baby, I get that, but what upsets you most is the fact that the Weasel never found out. Now why would you be upset about him not finding out? Hmm, I already know the answer to that, but we'll get to that later."
"M-"
"You knew, given his family and his morals, that he would never look at her the same if he knew the truth about her supposed abortion. You knew that he would leave her the instant he found out, and that she would be broken. And who was the best candidate to pick up the pieces of her broken heart? You."
Potter exploded, but it lacked the passion that it had before. "What!"
Draco pressed on, "But Granger left Weasley and then she left Britain, all before the truth started showing, for lack of a better word. I should've figured this out a long time ago." The blond berated himself with a quick shake of his head. "Shame on me for ignoring the hints that were laid out before me - shame on you for being so bloody blind and quick to judge."
"I-" He snapped his mouth shut.
Draco stared at him curiously. "So, with that being said, tell me something, Potter. Does your little girlfriend know that you're still in love with Hermione Granger?"
o10. Straightjacket Feeling by The All American Rejects
Today I'm fine without you
Run away this time without you
And all I'd ever thought you'd be
That face is staring holes in me again
And just like that, all of those subconscious romantic notions about Ronald Weasley were gone.
o11. Liar by Taking Back Sunday
Then back on that island
That you swear by
Still barely can't afford
It's still a question of
How long will this hold
Is it any different now that we are
Don't you go there
Not here, not now
Ron was utterly lost and he didn't like it one bit. "What is she talking about? You saw her in Australia?" He blinked in rapid succession as he tried to wrap his mind around what she'd said, "But you told me that you didn't see her-"
Hermione's face was like stone after a good rain shower. "Looks like I'm not the only liar among us."
Caught in his lie, Harry stammered, "I-"
Bitterly, she spoke, conveying all the hurt that she felt from his betrayal. "You saw me, sitting on that bench, and you never asked me anything. Y-you just jumped to conclusions and believed the worst about me."
o12. Leave Out All The Rest by Linkin Park
I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you
Bury your resentment when you bury me.
o13. Iris by The Goo Goo Dolls
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
“I’m in love with Pansy and I probably always will love her. And if she so much as hinted at it, I’d marry her tomorrow. However, she’s not ready yet so I’ll do what I do until she’s ready.”
o14. Home by Mae
I know I'm running and I'm moving too fast
So we will go home
And where I'm headed to it's nobody's guess
So we will go home
So when we go home
We’re not divers. We’re waders
o15. Existentialism on Prom Night by Straylight Run
So, sing me something soft
Sad and delicate
Or loud and out of key
Sing me anything
We're glad for what we've got
Done with what we've lost
Our whole lives laid out right in front of us
They were more than they had been, less still than they could be, but they were actively working on changing that.
o16. For Blue Skies by Strays Don't Sleep
For blue, blue skies
For blue, blue skies
For blue, blue skies
For blue, blue skies
I’ll forgive you
And after hesitating just a moment, Hermione grasped the doorknob again. She should’ve said more, she should’ve told Ginny that she was in dire need of professional help, but in that moment, Hermione thought that it was best if she said nothing at all.
So when she closed the door behind her, it didn’t slam shut.
Instead, it closed with a soft click.
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