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The pain is slowly dying down, wishing it away never worked and thinking about it just poured salt in my wounds. The way to keep myself sane and to help myself heal is to constantly remind myself that; she and I and that will be never again. In fact its become my mantra. (I know I hate using hindu terminology in reference of pop-culture, but it had to be said.)
She and I and that will never be again She and I and that will never be againShe and I and that will never be again She and I and that will never be again.
And yet she is the only person I see myself with, but I know it wouldn't work out, or atleast I have to tell myself that.
I think I love pain, not the physical, but the emotional. I dont think I can be happy for too long, well not happy, but the amount of comfort that comes from happiness. It bothers me, I need to be always wondering about the future, and anything that grounds my dreams in reality I fear. Also I think pain is the only emotion I truly feel, its a full body experience, its so strong its makes me feel alive, so alive I wish I was dead. I know its odd, but sometimes tis the only way I know I exist. If I go to long without feeling pain, I start to feel hollow and empty; even emotionless.
She and I and that will never be again She and I and that will never be againShe and I and that will never be again She and I and that will never be again.
And yet she is the only person I see myself with, but I know it wouldn't work out, or atleast I have to tell myself that.
I think I love pain, not the physical, but the emotional. I dont think I can be happy for too long, well not happy, but the amount of comfort that comes from happiness. It bothers me, I need to be always wondering about the future, and anything that grounds my dreams in reality I fear. Also I think pain is the only emotion I truly feel, its a full body experience, its so strong its makes me feel alive, so alive I wish I was dead. I know its odd, but sometimes tis the only way I know I exist. If I go to long without feeling pain, I start to feel hollow and empty; even emotionless.