17 MARCH, BABY.
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This feeling, so.. surreal.
Today is the saddest day of my life. It says "0!" on my phone's note which I use to countdown to ballet exam. Ten years... and that's it. I'm never going back to ballet again. Maybe there will be lessons until the end of March but I'm not sure. But today marks the end of everything. Kind of. I don't really know. Ten years passed really quickly. I was telling the whole world how my exams are coming when I first got the letter in December. And then... it's over just like that. JUST LIKE THAT. You know, anticlimax? I'm never going to do any RAD exams again.
On another note, this was probably the best exam I've ever done. I was having a lot of fun. I like how I'm the only one in the room with the examiner and the pianist. Both whom I don't really give a damn about. Cliche, but I just danced like I never did before. So much so that I forgot myself, forgot about everything... and screwed up Poetique. I couldn't balance !@#$%^ I hope I don't fail Poetique. This is one ass grade that if you fail one dance, you're doomed for the entire exam. In another words, you fail.
This was the first time I went for an exam without my best friend. I had her skirt with me though. Is this fate? Hahahaha. Anyhow I want to pass, like merit would suffice. Please please please. I could've done better but I have no regrets because I really enjoyed myself a lot. I like how I waited for the bell to ring. Damn it this experience is priceless. And I had probably half the bottle of gel on my hair. Nice. It still stinks of gel and it has the stiffy feeling even after two washes. Heck I don't really care anymore.
And like ten thousand people wished me. Diana Chan didn't wish me (!!!!) I bet she forgot like how she forgot her other two good friends' birthday. She's going to be so guilty, yet again. But it's okay I love her the same. Anyway, I love all of you so much. From the bottom of my heart. (Yes Rachel, the correct side of my heart.) Oh and I was texting Rachel in between my dances like... "OMGOMGOMOMG TWO DOWN, TWO MORE TO GO." "I JUST FINISHED THE FIRST DANCE BABYYYY." HAHAHAHAH wahlao 45 minutes went really quickly. Saul prayed for Clara and I before the exam.
I don't know what to do next, maybe I would learn how to play the violin. My close friends would know why. I'm such a bitch HAHAHAHA.
Tomorrow's Vanessa's group exam! Clara and I are going down to support them. Love the girls so much :) Tomorrow's "-1" on my phone, KIDDINGGGG.
Btw today's also 4 years later. Btw march holidays is ending god damn it.