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Well...Livejournal...here goes...
I'm ready for a change of scenery. Last weekend wasn't very fun. In contrast to the people around me, I wasn't having that great of a time. I'm happy that they're happy -- but ultimately I just need to get in touch with myself. I feel like I've lost contact with me. I also did something I'm not proud of, but to respect his personal interests, I'm not going to mention it. While I'm not particularly worried about it, it could potentially harm his place in society or something. I don't know. It's late and I haven't posted in awhile.
I've missed very few people as much as I'm missing Will right now. There are only about 4 others that I've reached this level with. I don't want to contact him either; he's better off independent from me.
I watched MTV for about 6 hours with Hannah, played Pokemon obsessively, and brooded, heavily, over the course my life is about to take.
I'm about to move away from something that has been very familiar and routine to me. I'm moving away from friends and family that I love. I know I've said it a thousand and one times, but my greatest fear is losing that closeness with these people.
And goddamn if this thought hasn't been stuck in my head for the past month: "I really wish I could make you laugh like I used to."
Hurray outlet.
Things I'm putting off: painting shoes, having long and complicated talks with people that I need to have long and complicated talks with, and coming out to the parents
I suppose, above all, I just want a hug that will knock me off my cynical ass. I want to feel embraced.
I'm ready for a change of scenery. Last weekend wasn't very fun. In contrast to the people around me, I wasn't having that great of a time. I'm happy that they're happy -- but ultimately I just need to get in touch with myself. I feel like I've lost contact with me. I also did something I'm not proud of, but to respect his personal interests, I'm not going to mention it. While I'm not particularly worried about it, it could potentially harm his place in society or something. I don't know. It's late and I haven't posted in awhile.
I've missed very few people as much as I'm missing Will right now. There are only about 4 others that I've reached this level with. I don't want to contact him either; he's better off independent from me.
I watched MTV for about 6 hours with Hannah, played Pokemon obsessively, and brooded, heavily, over the course my life is about to take.
I'm about to move away from something that has been very familiar and routine to me. I'm moving away from friends and family that I love. I know I've said it a thousand and one times, but my greatest fear is losing that closeness with these people.
And goddamn if this thought hasn't been stuck in my head for the past month: "I really wish I could make you laugh like I used to."
Hurray outlet.
Things I'm putting off: painting shoes, having long and complicated talks with people that I need to have long and complicated talks with, and coming out to the parents
I suppose, above all, I just want a hug that will knock me off my cynical ass. I want to feel embraced.