I predict a diet.
No brainpain today, but I feel so 'eye-y', if ya get me. Heavy eyelids. I also feel slightly trippy. Maybe it's just my eyes causing the migraines? Too much computering. I'm working in my old office this week, and I did last week too. I'm covering reception (ARGH PHOANS H8H8H8) but the work itself is quite fun; reports, PAT testing, faxing, copying, deciphering the messages left by potential cleaners on the recruitment line... Brings back memories! Tonight I had to walk a pack o' dawgs before and then go and clean a house afterwards, and then it was ballet! A long, busy busy day. Loads of achy bits, for the win! Lots and lots of posé turns which did wonders for shaking up my brain a bit more. Lolz.
I have realised that since I've managed to mostly dig my way out of the ol' depression rut, I go through moments where I have absolutely no self-consciousness at all. Sometimes, I am quite the extrovert. I realised this tonight while browsing in the Co-Op for bargains - I often do this on the way home from ballet as it's bargainaceous in there after 9pm. I realised that all the daft little thoughts I have in my head just seem to pop out of my mouth and I don't care who hears them. Haha. I saw a chocolate bar I fancied, 'Yumnum! I like it, gimme one o' them!' I do it all day at the office too, and sing little songs. 'Oh Didz, let's file this monthly service report, it's all done and finished, oh yeah, oh yeah...' I don't even know where this silliness came from because there was a time when I'd be too scared to even cough loudly in the office or in a shop or ANYWHERE, really, in case I got JUDGED or looked at or in case I exploded or whatever. I'd be silly with my close friends but it'd only be when my guard was down, which was hardly ever. Now my guard just pretty much stays down and Gemsy is out o' the bag. :D
Idk, maybe it's just an age thing. My nan's always chatted to randomers in shops and what have you. I chat to everyone these days. Tonight I handed the choccy to the cashier and paid for that and my fuel, then I noticed a little teeny tiny cake that was reduced to 30p or something. I exclaimed, 'Oooh!' and grabbed it, added it to my stash of munchies, and said, 'I'll have me one of them too, looks like a winner.' WTF self?
Yeah, I need to stop going to the Co-Op and looking for chocolatey bargains. Am trying to lose weight.
I have realised that since I've managed to mostly dig my way out of the ol' depression rut, I go through moments where I have absolutely no self-consciousness at all. Sometimes, I am quite the extrovert. I realised this tonight while browsing in the Co-Op for bargains - I often do this on the way home from ballet as it's bargainaceous in there after 9pm. I realised that all the daft little thoughts I have in my head just seem to pop out of my mouth and I don't care who hears them. Haha. I saw a chocolate bar I fancied, 'Yumnum! I like it, gimme one o' them!' I do it all day at the office too, and sing little songs. 'Oh Didz, let's file this monthly service report, it's all done and finished, oh yeah, oh yeah...' I don't even know where this silliness came from because there was a time when I'd be too scared to even cough loudly in the office or in a shop or ANYWHERE, really, in case I got JUDGED or looked at or in case I exploded or whatever. I'd be silly with my close friends but it'd only be when my guard was down, which was hardly ever. Now my guard just pretty much stays down and Gemsy is out o' the bag. :D
Idk, maybe it's just an age thing. My nan's always chatted to randomers in shops and what have you. I chat to everyone these days. Tonight I handed the choccy to the cashier and paid for that and my fuel, then I noticed a little teeny tiny cake that was reduced to 30p or something. I exclaimed, 'Oooh!' and grabbed it, added it to my stash of munchies, and said, 'I'll have me one of them too, looks like a winner.' WTF self?
Yeah, I need to stop going to the Co-Op and looking for chocolatey bargains. Am trying to lose weight.