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I can't believe Rob is gone. I hate myself for having to tell Leslie, and I hate that she is in so much pain. I hate thinking about how this is affecting Mary Ann, they were so in love. She just lost both her grandparents, now she lost the boy she would spend the rest of her life with and grow old with. I never knew someone so young who was killed that had a future and plans and a fiance. This is like a terribly sad movie, but its life. I'm glad Rob touched so many peoples hearts, but they are all broken now. I keep telling Leslie that this was his time, but how can it be? It was only 22 years. Leslie is so mad at God, but how can he take away somebody with so many things going on. God I can't stop crying when I think about Mary Ann. What if it was Charlie? What would I do? I don't even know it's so hard to think. I've never known anything that was this tragic before. Nothing that hit so close to home.
I can't even comfort Leslie. I'm sorry I wish I was a better friend. If I wasn't afraid to let her cry I would tell her all the things she needs to hear. Like he really cared about you Leslie. Like that he knew you cared about him too. That no harsh words or actions would break that. He had a very full, loving life.
I keep thinking about Jay. Those guys were like brothers. And Jay Leonard. He's at boot camp - does he know? The news travels fast around here.
In the back of my mind is the exact second I told Leslie that Rob was killed. How she just started crying. And when we drove by his house, I hoped for her sake that his car was there. Her reaction when it wasn't.
I can't be mad with God for things like this. But I can't stop myself from questioning why he takes people right out of the beginning of their lives for no reason. It was just an accident. That's all it was. Why couldn't he have just gotten hurt? Why can't this be the time where everyone is visiting him in the hospital and laughing and joking. Why can't the tears stop falling?
Mary Ann, you'll never read this but I want you to know that God wouldn't give you anything you couldn't handle. You are such a strong person. Rob will always be with you in your heart and someday you'll be together again.
Leslie, you are my best friend and I love you. And I know those words can't take away your pain. I'm trying my best...I really am. I wish I could just grab it all away from you, and take you back to where you were. Where the most important thing in life was winning the Brendan Leonard date contest. When we're in the car I don't know what to say. I turn the radio up really loud and pretend that singing "Boys Of Summer" will bring a smile to your face like it used to. Like getting McDonald's french fries was a goal for every night. I love you so much. I'm sorry for that same night, for those stupid things I said. Getting into a car isn't a joke, driving 2 important people home safely isn't a joke. God I wish that no one had to live through this. I just wish we could all be kids again, we were invinsible then, remember?
I can't even comfort Leslie. I'm sorry I wish I was a better friend. If I wasn't afraid to let her cry I would tell her all the things she needs to hear. Like he really cared about you Leslie. Like that he knew you cared about him too. That no harsh words or actions would break that. He had a very full, loving life.
I keep thinking about Jay. Those guys were like brothers. And Jay Leonard. He's at boot camp - does he know? The news travels fast around here.
In the back of my mind is the exact second I told Leslie that Rob was killed. How she just started crying. And when we drove by his house, I hoped for her sake that his car was there. Her reaction when it wasn't.
I can't be mad with God for things like this. But I can't stop myself from questioning why he takes people right out of the beginning of their lives for no reason. It was just an accident. That's all it was. Why couldn't he have just gotten hurt? Why can't this be the time where everyone is visiting him in the hospital and laughing and joking. Why can't the tears stop falling?
Mary Ann, you'll never read this but I want you to know that God wouldn't give you anything you couldn't handle. You are such a strong person. Rob will always be with you in your heart and someday you'll be together again.
Leslie, you are my best friend and I love you. And I know those words can't take away your pain. I'm trying my best...I really am. I wish I could just grab it all away from you, and take you back to where you were. Where the most important thing in life was winning the Brendan Leonard date contest. When we're in the car I don't know what to say. I turn the radio up really loud and pretend that singing "Boys Of Summer" will bring a smile to your face like it used to. Like getting McDonald's french fries was a goal for every night. I love you so much. I'm sorry for that same night, for those stupid things I said. Getting into a car isn't a joke, driving 2 important people home safely isn't a joke. God I wish that no one had to live through this. I just wish we could all be kids again, we were invinsible then, remember?