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[theautumn]

I had the most wonderful dream. Josh and Lindsay paid a visit. we talked, we ate, we were a family again. It was as if nothing happened. The years we lost as a untied family didn't exist, there was only the fellowship. Then I woke up and reality set in. un-forgiveness by one party or the other remains, and I still wish we could have a nice game of horseshoes like we did in the past. I dream about a late bar-b-que, the sky dark blue, not yet completely black. Smoke from the grill rising into the air and the smell of hamburgers and sausages filling our noses, we are once again a family. Blame is not spread around, and feelings aren't shattered.

But of course i live in this world, not yet heaven.