Fic: Happy Days Are Here Again - 12/18
Title: Happy Days Are Here Again - 12/18
Pairing: Rachel/Finn, Strong Rachel/Kurt friendship. Rachel/Dave friendship
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Rachel Berry has a secret she wants to reveal but is far too afraid to do so.
Warnings: Transgendered Character, Transphobia,
AN: Previous chapters can be found here. Short chapter but a new longer one is already almost done haha.
The renditions of popular songs that are performed at my party are interesting to say the least. I find that I can giggle and enjoy them, rather than critiquing them, so the alcohol has had its effect. I sing with almost everyone, but once I tire my voice out, Sam and Puck start into a barely recognizable version of Bohemian Rhapsody. That song always makes me sad, because it reminds me of Jesse. Jesse never knew any of my secrets, so I guess our relationship was very shallow, but I still regret the way it ended. He hurt me badly.
I sit with Dave Karofsky as they sing. "That's god awful," he says, looking up at Sam and Puck and shaking his head. "Like, really, really bad."
I nod. "It is, but how are you enjoying yourself David?" I really want him to enjoy himself. He should see that we're an awesome, supportive group of people, even if we sing horrible karaoke songs when we're a little drunk. I look at him and he seems so sad.
"I'm fine," he mumbles.
I lean up against his side and sigh happily. He's cuddly. He always looks so scary when he's walking down the McKinley halls but he's absolutely one of the best cuddly teddy bears ever. I wrap my arms around him and smile. "You know that you're a cuddly guy right?" I say, tilting my head to the side.
Finn walks over a few minutes later. "Rachel, what's going on?" he asks and I realize he's jealous.
"David doesn't like me," I laugh. "Don't worry about that." I almost say that he's gay but stop myself. I know that alcohol is very dangerous but I know that there are certain secrets I cannot spill at any cost. David looks alarmed but quickly moves me over toward Finn. I cling to him. I feel like clinging to any and everyone.
"I think she's had a bit too much," Dave offers to Finn. Finn nods.
"I won't spill your secrets Davey," I say, finding that the words just keep pouring out of my mouth. "I mean, I can't. I also won't tell everyone here that I have a penis because it would make them scared."
They look at each other over my head. It doesn't matter cause they both know, right?
I lay down on the couch for awhile, staring up at the two boys. I imagine coming out to the whole group of drunk teenagers here. The image in my head is kind of interesting. I don't think that any of them would understand, at least right now. I also think that I couldn't tell people right now, because I couldn't verbalize it the way that I want. It can't happen tonight but it really needs to happen soon.
"Did you know that you're a very good guy?" I ask Dave. Finn has left and I wonder how long I've just been lying on the couch, staring at the ceiling. I just have a lot of thoughts I guess. "You're going to be a good guy soon. When you come out you'll make someone an awesome boyfriend, a cuddly one too. If I was a boy then I'd want to date you, but with all my gender issues that'd just make your head spin or something."
"You're a funny girl, Berry," he manages quietly. He smiles though. It's a nice smile. "I admire what you're doing. These kids aren't so bad. You should eventually tell them all of this. Not today though, because they're all in various states of drunk. That would be a disaster."
I nod. He's smart.
When I wake up, my head is pounding. There is a dull throb that just spreads from my forehead all the way around. I turn around and see that Finn is right next to me. "Finn?" I ask, leaning back and looking into his beautiful eyes. "What happened? Where did everyone go? Isn't the party still going on?"
He laughs and brushes my hair back. "Rachel," he says. "You fell asleep awhile ago. Everyone's cleared out, except for Kurt, me and Karofsky. We're trying to clean things up."
"I was drunk," I say. I remember most of the night, but don't think I revealed anything dangerous. I sit up and groan as my back cracks. "David's still here?"
Finn gestured over to where Kurt and Dave were working on cleaning up a mess that included what appeared to be Brittany's bra. "I don't really know why we're all suddenly friends after he bullied Kurt so badly," Finn admitted. "I asked him why he was suddenly so friendly with all of us and he said it was your doing. He said that you made it happen."
I smile when I realize that I've had that kind of effect on someone. It makes my heart jump. "He's working hard to become a better person," I say. "I didn't know I had that much of an effect on him but I'm glad I did."
"He knows, right?"
I nod. He knows. He knows and someone that's helped him along the way. I get up and immediately start helping my boyfriend clean, hoping that there isn't any evidence that I can't get rid of. My fathers would be furious if they knew that I held a party while they were away. I try my best to cover everything up. "Finn," I say, as I begin to clean. "I'm considering coming out. I think it's time."
He seems a little unnerved, looking over at me and smiling gently. I wonder why he's worried. If it's something about his popularity I will literally scream. This is one of the biggest things I've ever done in my life. "I'm scared for you Rachel," he says, and my growing anger melts instantly. "I just…you're so brave…I support you okay? I totally support you."
"Thank you."
Pairing: Rachel/Finn, Strong Rachel/Kurt friendship. Rachel/Dave friendship
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Rachel Berry has a secret she wants to reveal but is far too afraid to do so.
Warnings: Transgendered Character, Transphobia,
AN: Previous chapters can be found here. Short chapter but a new longer one is already almost done haha.
The renditions of popular songs that are performed at my party are interesting to say the least. I find that I can giggle and enjoy them, rather than critiquing them, so the alcohol has had its effect. I sing with almost everyone, but once I tire my voice out, Sam and Puck start into a barely recognizable version of Bohemian Rhapsody. That song always makes me sad, because it reminds me of Jesse. Jesse never knew any of my secrets, so I guess our relationship was very shallow, but I still regret the way it ended. He hurt me badly.
I sit with Dave Karofsky as they sing. "That's god awful," he says, looking up at Sam and Puck and shaking his head. "Like, really, really bad."
I nod. "It is, but how are you enjoying yourself David?" I really want him to enjoy himself. He should see that we're an awesome, supportive group of people, even if we sing horrible karaoke songs when we're a little drunk. I look at him and he seems so sad.
"I'm fine," he mumbles.
I lean up against his side and sigh happily. He's cuddly. He always looks so scary when he's walking down the McKinley halls but he's absolutely one of the best cuddly teddy bears ever. I wrap my arms around him and smile. "You know that you're a cuddly guy right?" I say, tilting my head to the side.
Finn walks over a few minutes later. "Rachel, what's going on?" he asks and I realize he's jealous.
"David doesn't like me," I laugh. "Don't worry about that." I almost say that he's gay but stop myself. I know that alcohol is very dangerous but I know that there are certain secrets I cannot spill at any cost. David looks alarmed but quickly moves me over toward Finn. I cling to him. I feel like clinging to any and everyone.
"I think she's had a bit too much," Dave offers to Finn. Finn nods.
"I won't spill your secrets Davey," I say, finding that the words just keep pouring out of my mouth. "I mean, I can't. I also won't tell everyone here that I have a penis because it would make them scared."
They look at each other over my head. It doesn't matter cause they both know, right?
I lay down on the couch for awhile, staring up at the two boys. I imagine coming out to the whole group of drunk teenagers here. The image in my head is kind of interesting. I don't think that any of them would understand, at least right now. I also think that I couldn't tell people right now, because I couldn't verbalize it the way that I want. It can't happen tonight but it really needs to happen soon.
"Did you know that you're a very good guy?" I ask Dave. Finn has left and I wonder how long I've just been lying on the couch, staring at the ceiling. I just have a lot of thoughts I guess. "You're going to be a good guy soon. When you come out you'll make someone an awesome boyfriend, a cuddly one too. If I was a boy then I'd want to date you, but with all my gender issues that'd just make your head spin or something."
"You're a funny girl, Berry," he manages quietly. He smiles though. It's a nice smile. "I admire what you're doing. These kids aren't so bad. You should eventually tell them all of this. Not today though, because they're all in various states of drunk. That would be a disaster."
I nod. He's smart.
When I wake up, my head is pounding. There is a dull throb that just spreads from my forehead all the way around. I turn around and see that Finn is right next to me. "Finn?" I ask, leaning back and looking into his beautiful eyes. "What happened? Where did everyone go? Isn't the party still going on?"
He laughs and brushes my hair back. "Rachel," he says. "You fell asleep awhile ago. Everyone's cleared out, except for Kurt, me and Karofsky. We're trying to clean things up."
"I was drunk," I say. I remember most of the night, but don't think I revealed anything dangerous. I sit up and groan as my back cracks. "David's still here?"
Finn gestured over to where Kurt and Dave were working on cleaning up a mess that included what appeared to be Brittany's bra. "I don't really know why we're all suddenly friends after he bullied Kurt so badly," Finn admitted. "I asked him why he was suddenly so friendly with all of us and he said it was your doing. He said that you made it happen."
I smile when I realize that I've had that kind of effect on someone. It makes my heart jump. "He's working hard to become a better person," I say. "I didn't know I had that much of an effect on him but I'm glad I did."
"He knows, right?"
I nod. He knows. He knows and someone that's helped him along the way. I get up and immediately start helping my boyfriend clean, hoping that there isn't any evidence that I can't get rid of. My fathers would be furious if they knew that I held a party while they were away. I try my best to cover everything up. "Finn," I say, as I begin to clean. "I'm considering coming out. I think it's time."
He seems a little unnerved, looking over at me and smiling gently. I wonder why he's worried. If it's something about his popularity I will literally scream. This is one of the biggest things I've ever done in my life. "I'm scared for you Rachel," he says, and my growing anger melts instantly. "I just…you're so brave…I support you okay? I totally support you."
"Thank you."