Fic: So Far From Perfect - 2/?
Title: So Far From Perfect - 2/?
Genre: Angst / AU
Rating: R
Pairing: Kurt/Blaine
Summary: Sequel to Desperate Endeavor. Blaine Anderson just wants to start a new life, far away from his past as a prostitute. It's not going to be that easy but with the help of friends like Mike, Tina and Brittany and the love of his life, Kurt, maybe Blaine will make it. Previous chapters can be found here.
Blaine knew that it would be another couple of days, at the very least, until he received the results of the bloodwork, but he was already going insane. He was terrified. He wasn't sure that he would be able to make it if he was diagnosed with HIV. Of course, he knew that today it was possible to live a full and healthy life with HIV, but he just didn't have the mental strength to make it. He was weak, exhausted and had already been through so much. He wasn't sure that he would be able to survive. He was terrified.
He heard footsteps, looked up and saw Mike. He was pretty sure that Kurt had told Mike. That was confirmed when Mike spoke, only to say, "It'll be okay Blaine." He joined Blaine at the kitchen table and smiled up at him. Blaine didn't mind that Kurt told at all, of course. He owed his whole life to Mike Chang and admired the man so much. Mike was the closest thing Blaine had to a best friend.
He shrugged a little at his best friend’s words; he was just unable to be that positive. "I'm scared," he said in a low voice, "but I'm more scared that I gave something to Kurt and god knows how many guys."
Mike nodded, gently accepting his fears rather than reassuring him again. Blaine really admired that about Mike. He moved his chair over so that he was next to Blaine and put a hand on his shoulder, firmly. "You're the bravest guy I know, Blaine. You and Kurt are truthfully the men I admire most. You both have been through so much and endured those things with courage, bravery and a strong face I could never, ever keep up to."
Blaine honestly didn’t think he was admirable. He ran from everything that he was afraid of. Of course, he did agree that Kurt was the bravest person he knew, so he looked to Mike for a little distraction. “What was Kurt like in high school?” he asked, the topic change so jarring that it was obvious what he was doing, but he didn’t care. He wanted to know. He wanted to draw more inspiration from the man he loved so much.
Mike leaned back, looking nostalgic. Blaine was glad that he was one hundred percent willing to indulge Blaine’s change of subject. “Kurt was really brave,” he said softly, frowning as he thought about it. “He was picked on a lot, for being gay, for being a member of the glee club. He never let people’s opinions get to him though. He wore what he wanted to wear and did what he wanted to do, even if he received heavy harassment for doing it. I honestly wish I’d stood up for him more in high school but I was so incredibly, painfully shy and scared.”
“So, he was bullied badly?” Blaine asked, thinking about Dave Karofsky, one of Kurt’s bullies who had turned around to become one of his closeted clients. He felt bad for the guy, even if he had knocked Blaine around once or twice during a rough sexual encounter.
“It was worse for Kurt than for most of us and well, our group of friends was always bullied pretty badly.”
Blaine shook his head. “I don’t know how he kept standing there and taking it,” he said. “As soon as the bullying got too bad, I got myself the hell out of the situation. I lied to my parents as to why I was being bullied, of course, because they weren’t okay with me being gay, but I could have never stayed at my first high school and kept facing it.”
Mike’s eyes shone with admiration as he spoke of Kurt. “He always told his bullies that one day they’d find themselves working for him,” he said gently. “He was right, of course. He was always right when it came to things like that.”
“He’s mentioned glee club before,” Blaine said thoughtfully. “What was that like?”
“It was the best part of high school,” Mike told him quickly. “It started out as a small group of outcasts but we quickly became a family. Like I told you, I was really shy in high school, but glee helped me discover a love of dance that I had let lay dormant for pretty much my entire life. I would have never found out so much about myself if I hadn’t ended up joining glee club. Kurt was pretty much a star from the moment I met him. You should hear him perform. I’m honestly surprised that he went into fashion instead of Broadway sometimes, but they were equal passions in his mind, I think.”
“I’ve heard him sing before,” Blaine commented. “I would love to hear him perform though. I bet it’s breathtaking, like he is.”
Mike nodded. “We had so much teenage drama,” he said reverently, laughing a little. “There was always someone dating someone else, or cheating on someone else. A lot of the drama revolved around Kurt’s stepbrother Finn and his long time girlfriend Rachel. You met Finn, right?”
Blaine nodded.
“Finn’s an awesome guy who’s finally screwing his head on straight but as a teenager he was crazy,” Mike said chuckling.
“Were you and Kurt involved in that drama at all?” Blaine asked.
“Kurt wasn’t,” Mike said. “He had a crush on Finn once upon a time, long before they were stepbrothers but that fizzled out pretty quickly when their parents got serious about each other. I was in it briefly, but luckily I avoided the worst of it. Tina, you met Tina, she and I started dating after she broke up with her boyfriend Artie. There was also a little drama after senior year ended and we broke up. Then she started gravitating towards girls, Brittany in particular, and that was the end of that.”
Blaine could definitely sense the sadness in Mike’s voice. “You still love her don’t you?” he asked, gently. It was cliché and sad but he could see it in Mike’s eyes.
“A little,” Mike said. “I haven’t held a steady anything for more than a couple of months since.”
“We need to fix that,” Blaine said, smiling and for once forgetting about his problems. “Kurt and I should totally go matchmaker on you.”
“I am scared,” Mike declared.
“Who’s doing what kind of matchmaking?” Kurt asked, walking into the room. Blaine could tell that he was tired, overwhelmed by the same worry that Blaine was, but still his eyes sparkled. “I want to do some matchmaking.”
“We need to find Mike someone,” Blaine said, his brightness forced but bright all the same.
Genre: Angst / AU
Rating: R
Pairing: Kurt/Blaine
Summary: Sequel to Desperate Endeavor. Blaine Anderson just wants to start a new life, far away from his past as a prostitute. It's not going to be that easy but with the help of friends like Mike, Tina and Brittany and the love of his life, Kurt, maybe Blaine will make it. Previous chapters can be found here.
Blaine knew that it would be another couple of days, at the very least, until he received the results of the bloodwork, but he was already going insane. He was terrified. He wasn't sure that he would be able to make it if he was diagnosed with HIV. Of course, he knew that today it was possible to live a full and healthy life with HIV, but he just didn't have the mental strength to make it. He was weak, exhausted and had already been through so much. He wasn't sure that he would be able to survive. He was terrified.
He heard footsteps, looked up and saw Mike. He was pretty sure that Kurt had told Mike. That was confirmed when Mike spoke, only to say, "It'll be okay Blaine." He joined Blaine at the kitchen table and smiled up at him. Blaine didn't mind that Kurt told at all, of course. He owed his whole life to Mike Chang and admired the man so much. Mike was the closest thing Blaine had to a best friend.
He shrugged a little at his best friend’s words; he was just unable to be that positive. "I'm scared," he said in a low voice, "but I'm more scared that I gave something to Kurt and god knows how many guys."
Mike nodded, gently accepting his fears rather than reassuring him again. Blaine really admired that about Mike. He moved his chair over so that he was next to Blaine and put a hand on his shoulder, firmly. "You're the bravest guy I know, Blaine. You and Kurt are truthfully the men I admire most. You both have been through so much and endured those things with courage, bravery and a strong face I could never, ever keep up to."
Blaine honestly didn’t think he was admirable. He ran from everything that he was afraid of. Of course, he did agree that Kurt was the bravest person he knew, so he looked to Mike for a little distraction. “What was Kurt like in high school?” he asked, the topic change so jarring that it was obvious what he was doing, but he didn’t care. He wanted to know. He wanted to draw more inspiration from the man he loved so much.
Mike leaned back, looking nostalgic. Blaine was glad that he was one hundred percent willing to indulge Blaine’s change of subject. “Kurt was really brave,” he said softly, frowning as he thought about it. “He was picked on a lot, for being gay, for being a member of the glee club. He never let people’s opinions get to him though. He wore what he wanted to wear and did what he wanted to do, even if he received heavy harassment for doing it. I honestly wish I’d stood up for him more in high school but I was so incredibly, painfully shy and scared.”
“So, he was bullied badly?” Blaine asked, thinking about Dave Karofsky, one of Kurt’s bullies who had turned around to become one of his closeted clients. He felt bad for the guy, even if he had knocked Blaine around once or twice during a rough sexual encounter.
“It was worse for Kurt than for most of us and well, our group of friends was always bullied pretty badly.”
Blaine shook his head. “I don’t know how he kept standing there and taking it,” he said. “As soon as the bullying got too bad, I got myself the hell out of the situation. I lied to my parents as to why I was being bullied, of course, because they weren’t okay with me being gay, but I could have never stayed at my first high school and kept facing it.”
Mike’s eyes shone with admiration as he spoke of Kurt. “He always told his bullies that one day they’d find themselves working for him,” he said gently. “He was right, of course. He was always right when it came to things like that.”
“He’s mentioned glee club before,” Blaine said thoughtfully. “What was that like?”
“It was the best part of high school,” Mike told him quickly. “It started out as a small group of outcasts but we quickly became a family. Like I told you, I was really shy in high school, but glee helped me discover a love of dance that I had let lay dormant for pretty much my entire life. I would have never found out so much about myself if I hadn’t ended up joining glee club. Kurt was pretty much a star from the moment I met him. You should hear him perform. I’m honestly surprised that he went into fashion instead of Broadway sometimes, but they were equal passions in his mind, I think.”
“I’ve heard him sing before,” Blaine commented. “I would love to hear him perform though. I bet it’s breathtaking, like he is.”
Mike nodded. “We had so much teenage drama,” he said reverently, laughing a little. “There was always someone dating someone else, or cheating on someone else. A lot of the drama revolved around Kurt’s stepbrother Finn and his long time girlfriend Rachel. You met Finn, right?”
Blaine nodded.
“Finn’s an awesome guy who’s finally screwing his head on straight but as a teenager he was crazy,” Mike said chuckling.
“Were you and Kurt involved in that drama at all?” Blaine asked.
“Kurt wasn’t,” Mike said. “He had a crush on Finn once upon a time, long before they were stepbrothers but that fizzled out pretty quickly when their parents got serious about each other. I was in it briefly, but luckily I avoided the worst of it. Tina, you met Tina, she and I started dating after she broke up with her boyfriend Artie. There was also a little drama after senior year ended and we broke up. Then she started gravitating towards girls, Brittany in particular, and that was the end of that.”
Blaine could definitely sense the sadness in Mike’s voice. “You still love her don’t you?” he asked, gently. It was cliché and sad but he could see it in Mike’s eyes.
“A little,” Mike said. “I haven’t held a steady anything for more than a couple of months since.”
“We need to fix that,” Blaine said, smiling and for once forgetting about his problems. “Kurt and I should totally go matchmaker on you.”
“I am scared,” Mike declared.
“Who’s doing what kind of matchmaking?” Kurt asked, walking into the room. Blaine could tell that he was tired, overwhelmed by the same worry that Blaine was, but still his eyes sparkled. “I want to do some matchmaking.”
“We need to find Mike someone,” Blaine said, his brightness forced but bright all the same.