Fic: Of Wishes and Dresses (24/?)
Title: Of Wishes and Dresses - Chapter 24
Genre: Angst / Drama
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Mike/Tina friendship, Mika/Sam
Summary: Mike Mika Chang was a girl; her body just didn't agree with that assessment.
The ride back home from Regionals was surprisingly relaxing.
Mika lay pressed up against Sam for the entire journey, a smile on her face that nothing could wipe off. She had changed out of her ruined costume and taken off her damaged wig and was now wearing only a large t-shirt and jeans. She unfortunately looked like a boy, but she had never felt like more of a girl, no, a strong woman. She felt like herself and that was the most important part of all. She leaned against her boyfriend’s side and yawned.
The mood in the bus was just generally positive.
They had won Regionals, something they had failed to do last year, and they were going to Nationals in New York. Mika had never been to a big city and she was more than excited to know that she was going to have that opportunity soon. Whether they won or lost, this was their ultimate opportunity. More importantly than the glee victory, Mika had her own personal victory. She had stood up for herself and who she was and now felt stronger than ever.
“I’m happy,” she told Sam, as they drew closer to Lima. “Aren’t you?”
“Of course I’m happy,” he said, hugging her close. “We just won Regionals, we’re going to New York for Nationals and my girlfriend is one of the strongest people that I have ever met. I’m very, very happy.”
“Are your parents alright with you coming to the afterparty?” Mika asked.
New Directions had decided the moment that they won that they were going to have an unofficial celebration party at Rachel’s house. Her dads, like always, weren’t going to be home for the rest of weekend and they all felt they needed some kind of celebration. Rachel had been glad that her parents had both attended the show but when they had taken off afterward, she herself had declared the party, somewhat in annoyance at that.
“Yeah,” Sam said. “I sort of lied and told them that it was more of an official celebration type thing.”
“Tina’s parents are okay with us coming,” Mika said, poking Sam in the side. “They know that we’re good girls and all.”
“Great,” Sam said, running his hand over her side. “I really think that we could use a little celebration after the night that we had.”
She nodded.
They arrived back at Lima pretty early. Mika went home with Tina to grab some extra clothes, so that she could feel less like an awkward half-boy-half-girl creature and then they immediately went over to Rachel’s. It was a very quiet gathering, but everyone seemed to be absolutely high on the win. There was a little bit of alcohol flowing but Mika didn’t partake in it at all, determined to keep her promise to Mari and Daniel to behave.
Tina wandered off a little bit after they arrived to talk to Artie and Brittany. Mika found herself looking around for her boyfriend. He caught her from behind, arms around her waist and head pressed to her shoulder. “Hi beautiful.”
“Is my boyfriend drunk?” she asked.
He shook his head. “Nope, nuh-uh,” he said. “I think Rachel’s a little tipsy and maybe Quinn, but not me. I’m just honest.”
Sam may or may not have been a little bit tipsy, but she was definitely pleased either way when their lips touched in a very heated, very passionate kiss. Sam’s lips moved against hers and she held onto his shoulders to keep herself still. “You’re so amazing to me, you know that?” Sam asked, whispering the words against her lips. “You’re so strong and confident in yourself and you had the guts to punch that jackass today. I just can’t believe how in love with you I am sometimes.”
“Come on Sam, let’s go sit down,” she said, tears starting to hit the corners of her eyes fast. He was such an adorable sap and he played right into how much she loved him.
They took a seat on one of the far sofas in the corner of the room.
Mika tucked her knees underneath herself, leaning forward and kissing Sam on the lips again, enjoying the slow, sensual kissing. Sam kissed her back gently but passionately, curling his fingers against her cheek. It felt so nice. Sam kissed her in a tender manner that was totally devoted to her. He was the best boyfriend in the world. She shuddered a little. It was too amazing, the way he made her feel.
"Are you alright?" Sam asked her. She found his protectiveness so sweet.
She nodded, slowly sliding on her knees to get a bit closer. She tilted him back, slowly kissing him deeper. Their kissing quickly turned to passionate making out. Sam ran a hand over her thigh and oh no, ugh-
Mika could feel herself getting hard under her skirt. She shifted to keep Sam from noticing but he pressed up close and unconsciously shifted his hips against hers.
"Sam, stop."
Sam immediately stopped kissing her and looked her over. “Mika, are you alright?”
"I'm fine, it's just...a leg cramp."
Oh god. She winced as the words came out of her mouth. Sam knew she was lying the second the words came, she was sure. Ugh. She had always felt sick when she got an erection making out with Tina but at least then she hadn't yet understood why. She had not known then that she was girl with a boy’s body and the reason her genitals and their natural reactions bothered her so much was because she had the wrong ones.
Sam was so hot and tender with her and she honestly loved the boy. If she had the right anatomy, well honestly they'd be all over each other right now but no, she had to deal with this. She loved Sam so much and if she had the right anatomy, it would be hard to keep from dragging him up to one of the bedrooms, but now it was just hard for her to reconcile with the fact that she had a penis.
Sam realized what was wrong quickly. He was often teased for not being perceptive or smart, but he understood her.
"I know it's not the right body for you," he mumbled. "I know that you hate that your body belongs to a boy and not to you, but I just want you to know that you’re beautiful, okay? It's still gorgeous, you know? You're still gorgeous, so, so amazingly gorgeous. I know that it sucks to have the reactions of a dude, when you’re more woman than anyone I know but…but…don’t be ashamed.”
Mika tried to smile at that but totally whimpered. “It’s not fair Sam,” she whispered. She curled her knees up to her chest and turned away. Immediately, Sam was wrapping his arms around her and holding her tightly. The unfortunate erection was starting to go away, but still she felt so pathetic for being caught between two worlds. “I just want to be a normal girl, you know? I want to be with someone as wonderful and perfect as you and feel okay with the way it makes me feel. I feel good, so I should just accept it, right? You make me feel loved and adored and sexier than ever. All of those things are good things.”
Sam ran his fingers over her stomach, a strangely comforting, tender gesture.
“Your body might not be where you want it yet,” he said, “but yes, those are good things. It’s frustrating when you get reminded of something uncomfortable during a good moment, but every moment we’re together is a good moment. I meant what I said about being completely lovestruck and confused by you. You bring out the best in me and I love being close to you.”
She turned around and threw her arms around his neck. “I love you, so damned much,” she mumbled softly. “I love that you love me, even my weird body and stupid emotions.”
“I know you’re not ready for anything overly sexual yet,” he said, softly. “That’s totally okay. I just need you to tell me when what we do makes you uncomfortable, okay? I don’t ever want to make you uncomfortable.”
“I’ll be ready for sexual stuff when I stop popping random boners,” Mika mumbled bitterly. “I just wanna kiss you again Sam, that okay?”
Sam grinned. “Always.”
When their lips touched, inappropriate arousal was the last thing on Mika’s mind. It felt so good.
Genre: Angst / Drama
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Mike/Tina friendship, Mika/Sam
Summary: Mike Mika Chang was a girl; her body just didn't agree with that assessment.
The ride back home from Regionals was surprisingly relaxing.
Mika lay pressed up against Sam for the entire journey, a smile on her face that nothing could wipe off. She had changed out of her ruined costume and taken off her damaged wig and was now wearing only a large t-shirt and jeans. She unfortunately looked like a boy, but she had never felt like more of a girl, no, a strong woman. She felt like herself and that was the most important part of all. She leaned against her boyfriend’s side and yawned.
The mood in the bus was just generally positive.
They had won Regionals, something they had failed to do last year, and they were going to Nationals in New York. Mika had never been to a big city and she was more than excited to know that she was going to have that opportunity soon. Whether they won or lost, this was their ultimate opportunity. More importantly than the glee victory, Mika had her own personal victory. She had stood up for herself and who she was and now felt stronger than ever.
“I’m happy,” she told Sam, as they drew closer to Lima. “Aren’t you?”
“Of course I’m happy,” he said, hugging her close. “We just won Regionals, we’re going to New York for Nationals and my girlfriend is one of the strongest people that I have ever met. I’m very, very happy.”
“Are your parents alright with you coming to the afterparty?” Mika asked.
New Directions had decided the moment that they won that they were going to have an unofficial celebration party at Rachel’s house. Her dads, like always, weren’t going to be home for the rest of weekend and they all felt they needed some kind of celebration. Rachel had been glad that her parents had both attended the show but when they had taken off afterward, she herself had declared the party, somewhat in annoyance at that.
“Yeah,” Sam said. “I sort of lied and told them that it was more of an official celebration type thing.”
“Tina’s parents are okay with us coming,” Mika said, poking Sam in the side. “They know that we’re good girls and all.”
“Great,” Sam said, running his hand over her side. “I really think that we could use a little celebration after the night that we had.”
She nodded.
They arrived back at Lima pretty early. Mika went home with Tina to grab some extra clothes, so that she could feel less like an awkward half-boy-half-girl creature and then they immediately went over to Rachel’s. It was a very quiet gathering, but everyone seemed to be absolutely high on the win. There was a little bit of alcohol flowing but Mika didn’t partake in it at all, determined to keep her promise to Mari and Daniel to behave.
Tina wandered off a little bit after they arrived to talk to Artie and Brittany. Mika found herself looking around for her boyfriend. He caught her from behind, arms around her waist and head pressed to her shoulder. “Hi beautiful.”
“Is my boyfriend drunk?” she asked.
He shook his head. “Nope, nuh-uh,” he said. “I think Rachel’s a little tipsy and maybe Quinn, but not me. I’m just honest.”
Sam may or may not have been a little bit tipsy, but she was definitely pleased either way when their lips touched in a very heated, very passionate kiss. Sam’s lips moved against hers and she held onto his shoulders to keep herself still. “You’re so amazing to me, you know that?” Sam asked, whispering the words against her lips. “You’re so strong and confident in yourself and you had the guts to punch that jackass today. I just can’t believe how in love with you I am sometimes.”
“Come on Sam, let’s go sit down,” she said, tears starting to hit the corners of her eyes fast. He was such an adorable sap and he played right into how much she loved him.
They took a seat on one of the far sofas in the corner of the room.
Mika tucked her knees underneath herself, leaning forward and kissing Sam on the lips again, enjoying the slow, sensual kissing. Sam kissed her back gently but passionately, curling his fingers against her cheek. It felt so nice. Sam kissed her in a tender manner that was totally devoted to her. He was the best boyfriend in the world. She shuddered a little. It was too amazing, the way he made her feel.
"Are you alright?" Sam asked her. She found his protectiveness so sweet.
She nodded, slowly sliding on her knees to get a bit closer. She tilted him back, slowly kissing him deeper. Their kissing quickly turned to passionate making out. Sam ran a hand over her thigh and oh no, ugh-
Mika could feel herself getting hard under her skirt. She shifted to keep Sam from noticing but he pressed up close and unconsciously shifted his hips against hers.
"Sam, stop."
Sam immediately stopped kissing her and looked her over. “Mika, are you alright?”
"I'm fine, it's just...a leg cramp."
Oh god. She winced as the words came out of her mouth. Sam knew she was lying the second the words came, she was sure. Ugh. She had always felt sick when she got an erection making out with Tina but at least then she hadn't yet understood why. She had not known then that she was girl with a boy’s body and the reason her genitals and their natural reactions bothered her so much was because she had the wrong ones.
Sam was so hot and tender with her and she honestly loved the boy. If she had the right anatomy, well honestly they'd be all over each other right now but no, she had to deal with this. She loved Sam so much and if she had the right anatomy, it would be hard to keep from dragging him up to one of the bedrooms, but now it was just hard for her to reconcile with the fact that she had a penis.
Sam realized what was wrong quickly. He was often teased for not being perceptive or smart, but he understood her.
"I know it's not the right body for you," he mumbled. "I know that you hate that your body belongs to a boy and not to you, but I just want you to know that you’re beautiful, okay? It's still gorgeous, you know? You're still gorgeous, so, so amazingly gorgeous. I know that it sucks to have the reactions of a dude, when you’re more woman than anyone I know but…but…don’t be ashamed.”
Mika tried to smile at that but totally whimpered. “It’s not fair Sam,” she whispered. She curled her knees up to her chest and turned away. Immediately, Sam was wrapping his arms around her and holding her tightly. The unfortunate erection was starting to go away, but still she felt so pathetic for being caught between two worlds. “I just want to be a normal girl, you know? I want to be with someone as wonderful and perfect as you and feel okay with the way it makes me feel. I feel good, so I should just accept it, right? You make me feel loved and adored and sexier than ever. All of those things are good things.”
Sam ran his fingers over her stomach, a strangely comforting, tender gesture.
“Your body might not be where you want it yet,” he said, “but yes, those are good things. It’s frustrating when you get reminded of something uncomfortable during a good moment, but every moment we’re together is a good moment. I meant what I said about being completely lovestruck and confused by you. You bring out the best in me and I love being close to you.”
She turned around and threw her arms around his neck. “I love you, so damned much,” she mumbled softly. “I love that you love me, even my weird body and stupid emotions.”
“I know you’re not ready for anything overly sexual yet,” he said, softly. “That’s totally okay. I just need you to tell me when what we do makes you uncomfortable, okay? I don’t ever want to make you uncomfortable.”
“I’ll be ready for sexual stuff when I stop popping random boners,” Mika mumbled bitterly. “I just wanna kiss you again Sam, that okay?”
Sam grinned. “Always.”
When their lips touched, inappropriate arousal was the last thing on Mika’s mind. It felt so good.