Fic: Of Wishes and Dresses (22/?)
Title: Of Wishes and Dresses - Chapter Twenty-Two
Genre: Angst / Drama
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Mike/Tina friendship, Mika/Sam
Summary: Mike Mika Chang was a girl; her body just didn't agree with that assessment.
Mika found that the momentary bond that she created with Jeslyn at the convention center did not end there. They talked on the phone a lot and Mika was making plans to visit Columbus again for spring break so that they could hang out and spend some one-on-one time with one another. Sitting on the end of her bed, Mika told Jeslyn all about Sam over the phone. Her reaction was similar to the girls at school - she immediately burst out in “awww” and totally gushed.
"I didn't date in high school," Jeslyn told Mika, "but Sam reminds me a lot of my boyfriend Aaron. He didn't care for a second that I was trans and really swept me off my feet. I have to admit I really kind of stereotyped him at first, as someone who could never accept me for who I was but he proved me all wrong. He really, really proved me all wrong.”
"That's great," Mika said, finding that she was smiling into the phone. It was so nice to know that there were people who genuinely cared and defied the general expectation. "There are really good people out there, aren't there?"
" Sometimes true friends and more are hard to find but they are out there."
Jeslyn paused for a moment, yelling at her brother to take out the garbage and then giggling out loud. "Sorry," she said. "Chris is my brother and I adore him but he's the messiest roomie ever."
"It's okay."
"So, you mentioned school was tense. Any change?"
“Things are still pretty hard,” she said, turning the phone over to her other ear when she shifted to grab her math homework from the shelf next to her. She set it down in front, a reminder that she really needed to get to doing that sometime this year. “They’re hard but I did make a major breakthrough in glee. I just spoke out, you know? I told them that I’ve always known things about them that they kept within and that I really cared about them and hoped they could, y’know, accept me for who I am.”
“Did they respond?”
“Some did, some didn’t,” Mika mumbled. “Still, it really eased the tension, which was starting to ruin us. We have our major competition just a week away.”
“I really admire your determination,” she said. “Tell me more about this glee thing. I was a theater kid in high school, never got into the whole singing business.”
“Well, I’m in my school’s glee club and have been since last year. We’re definitely the school losers, as far as the social hierarchy goes. It makes me so happy. I mean, I’m not that vocally talented but I’m a good dancer and they always embraced me for who I was. All of those years, knowing that I didn’t fit in my skin the way I wanted to, I found peace being in glee, at least for a time.”
“That sounds really awesome,” Jeslyn said. “Is that where you met Tina?”
“Yep,” Mika said. “I admired Tina from the second we first met. They used to call us The Asian and The Other Asian sometimes, so we kind of gravitated towards each other. Lima isn’t exactly heavy on Asian students. I think there are four at McKinley altogether. There would have been five but nope, four. Yeah, four of us.”
“I felt the same at my high school,” Jeslyn said. “But anyway, what made you admire Tina so much? She seems like a wonderful girl.”
“Tina was really shy when we first met,” he said. “She was quiet, didn’t talk to anyone outside of the glee club, but there was this person dying to come out of her. She even faked a stutter for years because it kept eyes off of her but when she performed, it was so different. She came out of that and flourished in her own skin.”
Mika flushed a little bit as she spoke. “A lot of who I want to be is based off of who Tina is,” she admitted.
“Is that so?” Jeslyn asked.
Mika made a small affirmative sound.
“Be careful about basing yourself off of Tina,” Jeslyn warned slowly. “I mean, it’s wonderful to have a great inspiration and role model in your sister but at the same time make sure that you keep your individuality now that you’re transitioning into really accepting who you are and being a girl.”
Mika considered what Jeslyn was saying. She really had never figured out who she was and she had based a lot of herself off of Tina. “Is this from experience?”
“Mhm,” Jeslyn said. “I think that most people have dealt with finding their own identity but for transgendered girls like us, finding your own identity is even harder because our identities are fragile and we have to make them strong, despite the fact that people bring us down.”
She was right, Mika knew that.
“Oh damn it,” Jeslyn cursed. “I gotta go help Chris. Mika, I’ll talk to you soon.”
Mika hung up the phone after the other girl did. She knew that she really had to learn to be who she was. She was proud of who she was and she was not Tina’s double. She was who she was, an independent woman, a woman who was slowly becoming real. She was glad that she was starting to realize that.
Mika fixed her clothes for the day, a lot on her mind. Just as she did, one of the people on her mind, Tina, burst through the bedroom door, looking a little bit irritated.
“Hey babe,” she said, yawning. “Rachel’s called an emergency meeting for Regionals.”
“Well that was rude,” Mika mumbled, but she couldn’t help the small grin forming on her face. “It’s like she assumes that we’re losers with nothing to do but come to her emergency practices. I may have had some epic plans or something.”
Tina shook her head, rolling her eyes. “Hey, at least it gives you an excuse to go see Sam,” she said, poking Mika in the side. “You look really pretty by the way. You changed up your clothes a little. I love it.”
“Thanks.”
Mika got up and straightened herself out the rest of the way. She could use an emergency meeting she supposed.
When they arrived at Rachel’s house, the tiny diva had cleared out a ton of space in her family basement for the rehearsal. The rest of the glee club slowly arrived. Some, like Puck and Santana, immediately acted like they had better things to do, but it was obvious that everyone wanted to be there.
Sam arrived a few minutes after Tina and Mika had. He immediately draped an arm around her, kissed her and mumbled, “Guh you’re gorgeous. You look amazing.”
The boy definitely had the capability to make her heart drop through her feet.
The practice focused on dancing, so as she had before, Mika took the lead. It felt amazing. Dancing had always been her passion and now she found that it came to her so much easier as she wasn’t restricted by a body she wasn’t comfortable in. Well, maybe she still was in the wrong body, but at the same time she had accepted who she was as a girl, so it was much easier to do what she loved and embrace what she loved.
She helped the people who were struggling and it seemed things were coming together. Finn even gave her a smile when she helped him make one of his choreographed turns without falling. People joked about Finn but he was actually a lot better than he thought he was. He just needed to stop being so afraid.
The girls had heavier choreography in their number and Mika’s heart leapt into her throat when she realized that she was being considered one of the girls. She also loved the fact that Rachel, the same Rachel who had said having a transgendered person in their group would hurt their chances at Regionals, smiled and said, “Mika has to take the lead here, of course.”
When they took a break from dancing, Mika sat down on the basement step, yawning and taking a drink from her glass. Rachel had brought down water and iced tea for everyone.
Sam took a seat next to her, a huge smile on his face. “You did so well, babe,” he said, shaking his head. “I mean, you were always the greatest dancer that I ever knew but I have never seen you like that when you were…you know…”
“A boy?” Mika asked, nodding. “I feel different Sam. I mean, dancing has always been my life’s passion, but I was so scared to do it outside of my bedroom until glee came along. I never realized that I was also limited by my boy identity. It just kept me from being me in more ways than one. This is awesome.”
“We’re going to win Regionals and go on to win Nationals, no doubt,” Sam said with a confidence that made Mika swoon just a little bit.
Brittany, who overheard them, nodded very seriously. “My psychic friend said so and I think she’s right. We’re gonna win.”
“Psychic friend, huh?” Mika asked Brittany. “I think we definitely could win this.”
She cuddled into Sam’s side and decided that it was safe to mention a fear she was dealing with too. “You know how Rachel was kind of sure that I’d ruin our chances at Regionals?” she asked, gently.
“Baby, Rachel’s much better now…”
“No, it’s not Rachel,” she said. “I just kind of worry. I know that I’m not a soloist or anything but I am up and front in the dancing and the judges are going to realize that I’m not a biological girl. I don’t know, do you think it’ll hurt us?”
Sam shook his head. He kissed her. “Nah, don’t worry bout that.”
Genre: Angst / Drama
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Mike/Tina friendship, Mika/Sam
Summary: Mike Mika Chang was a girl; her body just didn't agree with that assessment.
Mika found that the momentary bond that she created with Jeslyn at the convention center did not end there. They talked on the phone a lot and Mika was making plans to visit Columbus again for spring break so that they could hang out and spend some one-on-one time with one another. Sitting on the end of her bed, Mika told Jeslyn all about Sam over the phone. Her reaction was similar to the girls at school - she immediately burst out in “awww” and totally gushed.
"I didn't date in high school," Jeslyn told Mika, "but Sam reminds me a lot of my boyfriend Aaron. He didn't care for a second that I was trans and really swept me off my feet. I have to admit I really kind of stereotyped him at first, as someone who could never accept me for who I was but he proved me all wrong. He really, really proved me all wrong.”
"That's great," Mika said, finding that she was smiling into the phone. It was so nice to know that there were people who genuinely cared and defied the general expectation. "There are really good people out there, aren't there?"
" Sometimes true friends and more are hard to find but they are out there."
Jeslyn paused for a moment, yelling at her brother to take out the garbage and then giggling out loud. "Sorry," she said. "Chris is my brother and I adore him but he's the messiest roomie ever."
"It's okay."
"So, you mentioned school was tense. Any change?"
“Things are still pretty hard,” she said, turning the phone over to her other ear when she shifted to grab her math homework from the shelf next to her. She set it down in front, a reminder that she really needed to get to doing that sometime this year. “They’re hard but I did make a major breakthrough in glee. I just spoke out, you know? I told them that I’ve always known things about them that they kept within and that I really cared about them and hoped they could, y’know, accept me for who I am.”
“Did they respond?”
“Some did, some didn’t,” Mika mumbled. “Still, it really eased the tension, which was starting to ruin us. We have our major competition just a week away.”
“I really admire your determination,” she said. “Tell me more about this glee thing. I was a theater kid in high school, never got into the whole singing business.”
“Well, I’m in my school’s glee club and have been since last year. We’re definitely the school losers, as far as the social hierarchy goes. It makes me so happy. I mean, I’m not that vocally talented but I’m a good dancer and they always embraced me for who I was. All of those years, knowing that I didn’t fit in my skin the way I wanted to, I found peace being in glee, at least for a time.”
“That sounds really awesome,” Jeslyn said. “Is that where you met Tina?”
“Yep,” Mika said. “I admired Tina from the second we first met. They used to call us The Asian and The Other Asian sometimes, so we kind of gravitated towards each other. Lima isn’t exactly heavy on Asian students. I think there are four at McKinley altogether. There would have been five but nope, four. Yeah, four of us.”
“I felt the same at my high school,” Jeslyn said. “But anyway, what made you admire Tina so much? She seems like a wonderful girl.”
“Tina was really shy when we first met,” he said. “She was quiet, didn’t talk to anyone outside of the glee club, but there was this person dying to come out of her. She even faked a stutter for years because it kept eyes off of her but when she performed, it was so different. She came out of that and flourished in her own skin.”
Mika flushed a little bit as she spoke. “A lot of who I want to be is based off of who Tina is,” she admitted.
“Is that so?” Jeslyn asked.
Mika made a small affirmative sound.
“Be careful about basing yourself off of Tina,” Jeslyn warned slowly. “I mean, it’s wonderful to have a great inspiration and role model in your sister but at the same time make sure that you keep your individuality now that you’re transitioning into really accepting who you are and being a girl.”
Mika considered what Jeslyn was saying. She really had never figured out who she was and she had based a lot of herself off of Tina. “Is this from experience?”
“Mhm,” Jeslyn said. “I think that most people have dealt with finding their own identity but for transgendered girls like us, finding your own identity is even harder because our identities are fragile and we have to make them strong, despite the fact that people bring us down.”
She was right, Mika knew that.
“Oh damn it,” Jeslyn cursed. “I gotta go help Chris. Mika, I’ll talk to you soon.”
Mika hung up the phone after the other girl did. She knew that she really had to learn to be who she was. She was proud of who she was and she was not Tina’s double. She was who she was, an independent woman, a woman who was slowly becoming real. She was glad that she was starting to realize that.
Mika fixed her clothes for the day, a lot on her mind. Just as she did, one of the people on her mind, Tina, burst through the bedroom door, looking a little bit irritated.
“Hey babe,” she said, yawning. “Rachel’s called an emergency meeting for Regionals.”
“Well that was rude,” Mika mumbled, but she couldn’t help the small grin forming on her face. “It’s like she assumes that we’re losers with nothing to do but come to her emergency practices. I may have had some epic plans or something.”
Tina shook her head, rolling her eyes. “Hey, at least it gives you an excuse to go see Sam,” she said, poking Mika in the side. “You look really pretty by the way. You changed up your clothes a little. I love it.”
“Thanks.”
Mika got up and straightened herself out the rest of the way. She could use an emergency meeting she supposed.
When they arrived at Rachel’s house, the tiny diva had cleared out a ton of space in her family basement for the rehearsal. The rest of the glee club slowly arrived. Some, like Puck and Santana, immediately acted like they had better things to do, but it was obvious that everyone wanted to be there.
Sam arrived a few minutes after Tina and Mika had. He immediately draped an arm around her, kissed her and mumbled, “Guh you’re gorgeous. You look amazing.”
The boy definitely had the capability to make her heart drop through her feet.
The practice focused on dancing, so as she had before, Mika took the lead. It felt amazing. Dancing had always been her passion and now she found that it came to her so much easier as she wasn’t restricted by a body she wasn’t comfortable in. Well, maybe she still was in the wrong body, but at the same time she had accepted who she was as a girl, so it was much easier to do what she loved and embrace what she loved.
She helped the people who were struggling and it seemed things were coming together. Finn even gave her a smile when she helped him make one of his choreographed turns without falling. People joked about Finn but he was actually a lot better than he thought he was. He just needed to stop being so afraid.
The girls had heavier choreography in their number and Mika’s heart leapt into her throat when she realized that she was being considered one of the girls. She also loved the fact that Rachel, the same Rachel who had said having a transgendered person in their group would hurt their chances at Regionals, smiled and said, “Mika has to take the lead here, of course.”
When they took a break from dancing, Mika sat down on the basement step, yawning and taking a drink from her glass. Rachel had brought down water and iced tea for everyone.
Sam took a seat next to her, a huge smile on his face. “You did so well, babe,” he said, shaking his head. “I mean, you were always the greatest dancer that I ever knew but I have never seen you like that when you were…you know…”
“A boy?” Mika asked, nodding. “I feel different Sam. I mean, dancing has always been my life’s passion, but I was so scared to do it outside of my bedroom until glee came along. I never realized that I was also limited by my boy identity. It just kept me from being me in more ways than one. This is awesome.”
“We’re going to win Regionals and go on to win Nationals, no doubt,” Sam said with a confidence that made Mika swoon just a little bit.
Brittany, who overheard them, nodded very seriously. “My psychic friend said so and I think she’s right. We’re gonna win.”
“Psychic friend, huh?” Mika asked Brittany. “I think we definitely could win this.”
She cuddled into Sam’s side and decided that it was safe to mention a fear she was dealing with too. “You know how Rachel was kind of sure that I’d ruin our chances at Regionals?” she asked, gently.
“Baby, Rachel’s much better now…”
“No, it’s not Rachel,” she said. “I just kind of worry. I know that I’m not a soloist or anything but I am up and front in the dancing and the judges are going to realize that I’m not a biological girl. I don’t know, do you think it’ll hurt us?”
Sam shook his head. He kissed her. “Nah, don’t worry bout that.”