Fic: To The Tune of Heartbreak (6/6)
Title: To The Tune of Heartbreak - Chapter Six
Genre: Romance / Drama
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Jesse/Blaine
Word Count: 1000 this chapter | 7000 overall
Summary: Kurt wasn't going to lie about it - the fact that Blaine Anderson had a boyfriend hurt. It hurt even more when he realized who that boyfriend was.
AN: Thanks to those who followed it. It's not my best and I'm not as proud of it as I could have been but I definitely plan on more Jesse fic some day. I love this boy.
Dalton Academy always freaked Jesse out if he were being honest. Everything was so intense, so formal and it was nothing like the high school he remembered. Carmel had been a school full of constant action and McKinley had been a school where even he, the confident person that he was, was terrified. Dalton was a new breed of high school dynamics. Still, Jesse really understood how this school made his once-abused boyfriend feel safe. Every single thing on the school ground was structured, ordered and with the zero-tolerance bullying policy - safe for people like Blaine who had endured so much bullying. He was glad that Blaine could feel safe within its walls.
Waiting for Blaine and becoming steadily more uncomfortable, Jesse found someone who made him a whole lot more uncomfortable. Standing in front of him in a buttoned Dalton Academy blazer was Kurt Hummel. The boy stared at him with an unreadable expression, before walking towards him.
He expected Kurt to pass by or make some kind of biting remark but instead, the boy approached him slowly, with none of his usual forced confidence and bravado. He seemed genuinely upset and genuinely apologetic when he finally spoke up. “I’m sorry Jesse,” he said with a calm and even tone of voice. He looked like it pained him to apologize, but at least he was apologizing. That was probably as big of a step for Kurt as it was for Jesse when he needed to apologize.
“You’re sorry?” he asked, surprised.
“Yes,” Kurt said evenly. “I was judgmental and jealous. I still don’t really know if I can trust you, because Rachel has become one of my closest friends, but I hurt Blaine and that’s not something that I ever intended to do. If Blaine is happy with you then I am going to learn.”
It was forced and almost comical but it was a start. “Do you mean that?” Jesse asked.
Kurt nodded. “Seeing Blaine that angry really hurt,” he admitted. “I care about him and don’t want him to hate me just because I can’t accept his boyfriend. I need to grow up and here I am, growing up.” Kurt attempted a half-smile and Jesse smiled back at him.
“Can I tell you something?” he asked. Jesse was not an emotionally open person and never had been.
“Sure.”
“I love Blaine,” he said honestly, slipping his hands into his pocket and leaning against the side of the building. “I absolutely, positively adore him. Blaine got me out of a horrible state of mind mentally. I left Carmel acting like a hotshot and thinking I was just amazing. I had led Vocal Adrenaline to another Nationals title and it seemed like I had everything going for me. All of them, Shelby, Dakota even, they all had me convinced that I was destined for greatness where everyone else would fail.”
He chuckled. “Imagine how I felt when I wasn’t even cast in anything I tried out for, school was tough and people didn’t worship the ground I walked on. Frankly, I was not prepared for the real world and failed.”
Kurt frowned a little. “I made fun of you for the same,” he confessed, “but that does sound terrifying.”
“It was,” Jesse mumbled low. “I was so scared and I didn’t know what to do. Then, I started learning that all of the stuff I was groomed to do in high school was sick and sadistic and nothing like the way things should be. I started to think about Rachel and what I did for her. I couldn’t take it anymore.”
“What happened?”
“Ever have a breakdown on a stage in front of a crowd of classmates?” Jesse asked. “I did. It was horrifying. I…I transferred as soon as I could and came back home. That was when I met Blaine. He brought me to a better place mentally.”
“I can relate,” Kurt said, honestly. “Well, not to the breakdown, but to Blaine bringing you to a better place. He really saved me. I was drowning in the bullying I was enduring back at school and a lot of bad things happened. Blaine saved me and helped me confront my fears and gave me someone to turn to.”
“He was bullied really badly,” Jesse mumbled. “Oh…that’s why you’re…like…I’m sorry you have feelings for him…”
Kurt shrugged. “It is what it is. Hey, thinking Blaine is awesome is something we have in common.”
“That is a start.” It was something small that they had in common, even though he imagined that it was painful for Kurt to have to like his boyfriend.
“Blaine is not at all that awesome.” Both of them turned at the same moment to find Blaine, walking up to them and rolling up the sleeves of his blazer. “Seriously, don’t all fanboy me at once.” His smile melted Jesse. Blaine was just something else. There was nobody in the world quite like him.
Blaine turned to Kurt. “I heard the end of what you said and I…well thank you so much for that. It means a lot to me. You mean a lot to me. I didn’t mean to blow up at you yesterday; I just boil up when I’m angry. It’s not a good trait.”
“I deserved it,” Kurt said.
“Maybe a little bit,” Blaine teased.
Jesse wasn’t really done talking though, so he touched Kurt’s shoulder. “I just want to say again Kurt,” he mumbled, “that I have no intention of messing up any of the teams’ chances at Regionals. I’m going to go of course, to support all three of the teams that I have connection to but god, Kurt, my competitive side is long gone.”
Kurt nodded. “I can’t imagine a competitive side ever leaving,” he said. “But thank you.”
Jesse amended himself. “Maybe it hasn’t left,” he said. “But it was squashed. Your competitive edge goes to hell when you break down crying on a stage. Friends?”
“We’ll try.”
Genre: Romance / Drama
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Jesse/Blaine
Word Count: 1000 this chapter | 7000 overall
Summary: Kurt wasn't going to lie about it - the fact that Blaine Anderson had a boyfriend hurt. It hurt even more when he realized who that boyfriend was.
AN: Thanks to those who followed it. It's not my best and I'm not as proud of it as I could have been but I definitely plan on more Jesse fic some day. I love this boy.
Dalton Academy always freaked Jesse out if he were being honest. Everything was so intense, so formal and it was nothing like the high school he remembered. Carmel had been a school full of constant action and McKinley had been a school where even he, the confident person that he was, was terrified. Dalton was a new breed of high school dynamics. Still, Jesse really understood how this school made his once-abused boyfriend feel safe. Every single thing on the school ground was structured, ordered and with the zero-tolerance bullying policy - safe for people like Blaine who had endured so much bullying. He was glad that Blaine could feel safe within its walls.
Waiting for Blaine and becoming steadily more uncomfortable, Jesse found someone who made him a whole lot more uncomfortable. Standing in front of him in a buttoned Dalton Academy blazer was Kurt Hummel. The boy stared at him with an unreadable expression, before walking towards him.
He expected Kurt to pass by or make some kind of biting remark but instead, the boy approached him slowly, with none of his usual forced confidence and bravado. He seemed genuinely upset and genuinely apologetic when he finally spoke up. “I’m sorry Jesse,” he said with a calm and even tone of voice. He looked like it pained him to apologize, but at least he was apologizing. That was probably as big of a step for Kurt as it was for Jesse when he needed to apologize.
“You’re sorry?” he asked, surprised.
“Yes,” Kurt said evenly. “I was judgmental and jealous. I still don’t really know if I can trust you, because Rachel has become one of my closest friends, but I hurt Blaine and that’s not something that I ever intended to do. If Blaine is happy with you then I am going to learn.”
It was forced and almost comical but it was a start. “Do you mean that?” Jesse asked.
Kurt nodded. “Seeing Blaine that angry really hurt,” he admitted. “I care about him and don’t want him to hate me just because I can’t accept his boyfriend. I need to grow up and here I am, growing up.” Kurt attempted a half-smile and Jesse smiled back at him.
“Can I tell you something?” he asked. Jesse was not an emotionally open person and never had been.
“Sure.”
“I love Blaine,” he said honestly, slipping his hands into his pocket and leaning against the side of the building. “I absolutely, positively adore him. Blaine got me out of a horrible state of mind mentally. I left Carmel acting like a hotshot and thinking I was just amazing. I had led Vocal Adrenaline to another Nationals title and it seemed like I had everything going for me. All of them, Shelby, Dakota even, they all had me convinced that I was destined for greatness where everyone else would fail.”
He chuckled. “Imagine how I felt when I wasn’t even cast in anything I tried out for, school was tough and people didn’t worship the ground I walked on. Frankly, I was not prepared for the real world and failed.”
Kurt frowned a little. “I made fun of you for the same,” he confessed, “but that does sound terrifying.”
“It was,” Jesse mumbled low. “I was so scared and I didn’t know what to do. Then, I started learning that all of the stuff I was groomed to do in high school was sick and sadistic and nothing like the way things should be. I started to think about Rachel and what I did for her. I couldn’t take it anymore.”
“What happened?”
“Ever have a breakdown on a stage in front of a crowd of classmates?” Jesse asked. “I did. It was horrifying. I…I transferred as soon as I could and came back home. That was when I met Blaine. He brought me to a better place mentally.”
“I can relate,” Kurt said, honestly. “Well, not to the breakdown, but to Blaine bringing you to a better place. He really saved me. I was drowning in the bullying I was enduring back at school and a lot of bad things happened. Blaine saved me and helped me confront my fears and gave me someone to turn to.”
“He was bullied really badly,” Jesse mumbled. “Oh…that’s why you’re…like…I’m sorry you have feelings for him…”
Kurt shrugged. “It is what it is. Hey, thinking Blaine is awesome is something we have in common.”
“That is a start.” It was something small that they had in common, even though he imagined that it was painful for Kurt to have to like his boyfriend.
“Blaine is not at all that awesome.” Both of them turned at the same moment to find Blaine, walking up to them and rolling up the sleeves of his blazer. “Seriously, don’t all fanboy me at once.” His smile melted Jesse. Blaine was just something else. There was nobody in the world quite like him.
Blaine turned to Kurt. “I heard the end of what you said and I…well thank you so much for that. It means a lot to me. You mean a lot to me. I didn’t mean to blow up at you yesterday; I just boil up when I’m angry. It’s not a good trait.”
“I deserved it,” Kurt said.
“Maybe a little bit,” Blaine teased.
Jesse wasn’t really done talking though, so he touched Kurt’s shoulder. “I just want to say again Kurt,” he mumbled, “that I have no intention of messing up any of the teams’ chances at Regionals. I’m going to go of course, to support all three of the teams that I have connection to but god, Kurt, my competitive side is long gone.”
Kurt nodded. “I can’t imagine a competitive side ever leaving,” he said. “But thank you.”
Jesse amended himself. “Maybe it hasn’t left,” he said. “But it was squashed. Your competitive edge goes to hell when you break down crying on a stage. Friends?”
“We’ll try.”