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You know how most people when they stop and think they say, wow life is amazing! Isn't it just wonderful to be alive?!
When I have those moments it goes the other way and I find myself thinking. Wow, life is really pointless. Why am I here? What's the point in waking up tomorrow? (the answer to that question to myself usually is, there isn't one, but I have to so I'll do it anyways). Eck.
I'm not unhappy, I'm just disappointed with the mundane nature of my life in times of late. I desire passion, adventure, anything! Whether it's joy or suffering I don't care! I want to feel like I'm doing something more than floating by.
Make me feel like a person, a lover, a fighter, a disappointment, a failure, a success, a sinner, a saint....ANYTHING! Make me feel like something besides an object, or an existence.
Ugh.
When I have those moments it goes the other way and I find myself thinking. Wow, life is really pointless. Why am I here? What's the point in waking up tomorrow? (the answer to that question to myself usually is, there isn't one, but I have to so I'll do it anyways). Eck.
I'm not unhappy, I'm just disappointed with the mundane nature of my life in times of late. I desire passion, adventure, anything! Whether it's joy or suffering I don't care! I want to feel like I'm doing something more than floating by.
Make me feel like a person, a lover, a fighter, a disappointment, a failure, a success, a sinner, a saint....ANYTHING! Make me feel like something besides an object, or an existence.
Ugh.