Mar 09, 2008 18:30
"Never pray for justice, because you might get some."
Why is that a bad thing? Many nights I laid awake in Azkaban (as it's impossible to sleep in a prison in the middle of the North Sea, with the pounding of the waves and the howls and screams of those being tormented by the dementors) and thought over the events of that cold night where everything changed.
I wished that I had killed Peter. I wished for someone to realize that I was innocent and that I would be freed, that the proper man would be locked up to spend life in hell.
It never happened.
[locked to 'adults' and Harry]
But when I laid awake, those nights, as a year turned to two, then five, then to ten...the thoughts never failed me. There are so many ways to kill a man, so many spells and ways to strike down a wizard...I must have considered them all. I wanted justice and with all the time in the world to plan my revenge...
...needless to say, my mind was filled with thoughts of justice for many years. Thoughts. Prayers even. And when the years would go by and I wasn't freed...well, they say Azkaban makes men go mad.
'Mad' is such a general definition of the state of mind...
Sirius Black
Harry Potter