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ok so i'm really tired and wish i could just go night night...however i'm in an airport in Newark, NJ...not a happy camper. so my flight was supposed to leave b-lo at 4:50...got there a little after 3...it's delayed. i was supposed to land here at 6:20ish and my connection was to leave at 7:30. they tell me my flight was delayed to 6 and that i should still be able to make my connection...barely...but ok. so i go through security and i'm sitting there not in the happiest of moods for having to wait and extra hour for the flight. not long and there's an announcement...the flight to newark has now been delayed to 7...will emily green please come to the ticket counter. so b/c it's the airport and you cant leave anything unattended and of course i was all set up powered up w/ my lap top and ipod and everything so i have to pack it all up and go up there.
"you're not going to make your connection" great. i had two options...i could either stay in buffalo and try again in the morning...leaving there at like 8 something...or fly here and wait til 630 for the next flight to phoenix. so b/c i didn't want to have to be delayed and shit there again in the morning i just took the flight. so then they decide to board us an hour early...hoping to be able to take off early. so i get all excited...maybe i will make my connection. so we sit there for over an hour in the plane on the runway. waiting. then the captain comes on..."our wheels up time has just been pushed back another hour".
weather they said. so my question is if the weather was that bad, why did my plane leave on time to phoenix from here? it left before i left buffalo.
oh wait i have to back up a bit...i forgot the best part. so after the lady was like you're not making it what do you want to do...i was so fucking pissed. I knew it wasn't the lady's fault but my own b/c it was karma biting me in the ass...so i was trying real hard not to just flip out on her or anyone else...so i just told her i was going to newark and walked away...i was shaking though i was so mad. and while walking trying to calm down...i happened to find myself in a bar...do you want to make that a double? hell yes i do. the good part is it made me happy and i no longer wanted to kill someone...the bad...i shouldn't be like that. i shouldn't need alcohol to be calm.
yes i am an alcoholic. it doesn't matter if you only drink one drink every night...it's only a matter of time before it's more. and to get through the day you shouldn't have to think about the drink you have waiting at home. im not as bad as i was...but that doesn't mean it still isnt a problem. I am no longer drinking...i dont' want to get to the point where it's ruling my life again but to the point i have to completely hit rock bottom before being able to pull myself back.
"you're not going to make your connection" great. i had two options...i could either stay in buffalo and try again in the morning...leaving there at like 8 something...or fly here and wait til 630 for the next flight to phoenix. so b/c i didn't want to have to be delayed and shit there again in the morning i just took the flight. so then they decide to board us an hour early...hoping to be able to take off early. so i get all excited...maybe i will make my connection. so we sit there for over an hour in the plane on the runway. waiting. then the captain comes on..."our wheels up time has just been pushed back another hour".
weather they said. so my question is if the weather was that bad, why did my plane leave on time to phoenix from here? it left before i left buffalo.
oh wait i have to back up a bit...i forgot the best part. so after the lady was like you're not making it what do you want to do...i was so fucking pissed. I knew it wasn't the lady's fault but my own b/c it was karma biting me in the ass...so i was trying real hard not to just flip out on her or anyone else...so i just told her i was going to newark and walked away...i was shaking though i was so mad. and while walking trying to calm down...i happened to find myself in a bar...do you want to make that a double? hell yes i do. the good part is it made me happy and i no longer wanted to kill someone...the bad...i shouldn't be like that. i shouldn't need alcohol to be calm.
yes i am an alcoholic. it doesn't matter if you only drink one drink every night...it's only a matter of time before it's more. and to get through the day you shouldn't have to think about the drink you have waiting at home. im not as bad as i was...but that doesn't mean it still isnt a problem. I am no longer drinking...i dont' want to get to the point where it's ruling my life again but to the point i have to completely hit rock bottom before being able to pull myself back.