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i have no idea what i'm doing anymore... no fucking clue. i just wish i could go back in time and undo all the fucking up i've done of my life. it's just one big mess...one great big fucking mess and i want someone to clean it up for me...that's what i need in life, someone to go behind me cleaning up, and making sure i'm not fucking up. i need a mom who isn't my mom b/c i won't listen to her or talk to her. so i think i'm going to drop out of school. i think i may get my real estate liscense and do that. or i'm thinking of becoming a flight attendent. or i may really try to get on a cruise ship, b/c i still want to do that. i just have no clue what i'm doing right now. none.