a break in the movement
geeze, it has been ages since I have written...
I want this week to be over. This choreography project to be over already. It's supposed to be fun, and it is to a certain degree but... I like to have a polished finished project, and we cant do that if we cant get everyone together. Today we got a decent amount done, and added at least one move that is sure to get us a laugh. Followed Peters advice for that one. "To make it interesting, just add sex to it." We'll see if the renewed version is any less boring tomorrow in class... I really want to do a good job with this, and it should be decent even if we did the old version. However, I never want to settle for average. This is not a bad quality I don't think, it just becomes slightly stressful (especially with no director!)
So I am in Womens Chorus. This is definitely something not to scoff at and I am happy to be in it. I can always try for Chamber my senior year. ONLY thing is... I am jealous. And I hate it! I am happy where i am, yet I am resentful of those who are higher then me. Why the hell am I ALWAYS so goddamn competitive? It's my least favorite quality about myself. When it comes to theater, or anything involving audition, I always get a little upset. Come to think of it, I actually don't care too much about Chorus on its own. The way my mind works it goes 1) we both audition 2) she was ranked higher then me 3) K will find out 4) he will consider her to be better.
It's stupid, and I ignore it because I KNOW it's stupid...but it bothers me that as soon as I found as that was the very first thing I thought of. It'll be fine though, I still love her, and we are still going to be friends regardless. To let something as stupid as my own jealousy get in the way of a friendship would REALLY be stupid.
My physical health is starting to worry me. It seems like every time I move something else is going wrong. I'm going to the doctor monday, so hopefully I will be told that I'm just over reacting. Peter went and surprised me with chocolate today during my choreo rehearsal to help get rid of my headache/migraine and to my surprise, the chocolate actually did help. Must remember that for the future...
yawn, I took a 3 hour nap and I'm still sleepy. I'm off... Fin.
I want this week to be over. This choreography project to be over already. It's supposed to be fun, and it is to a certain degree but... I like to have a polished finished project, and we cant do that if we cant get everyone together. Today we got a decent amount done, and added at least one move that is sure to get us a laugh. Followed Peters advice for that one. "To make it interesting, just add sex to it." We'll see if the renewed version is any less boring tomorrow in class... I really want to do a good job with this, and it should be decent even if we did the old version. However, I never want to settle for average. This is not a bad quality I don't think, it just becomes slightly stressful (especially with no director!)
So I am in Womens Chorus. This is definitely something not to scoff at and I am happy to be in it. I can always try for Chamber my senior year. ONLY thing is... I am jealous. And I hate it! I am happy where i am, yet I am resentful of those who are higher then me. Why the hell am I ALWAYS so goddamn competitive? It's my least favorite quality about myself. When it comes to theater, or anything involving audition, I always get a little upset. Come to think of it, I actually don't care too much about Chorus on its own. The way my mind works it goes 1) we both audition 2) she was ranked higher then me 3) K will find out 4) he will consider her to be better.
It's stupid, and I ignore it because I KNOW it's stupid...but it bothers me that as soon as I found as that was the very first thing I thought of. It'll be fine though, I still love her, and we are still going to be friends regardless. To let something as stupid as my own jealousy get in the way of a friendship would REALLY be stupid.
My physical health is starting to worry me. It seems like every time I move something else is going wrong. I'm going to the doctor monday, so hopefully I will be told that I'm just over reacting. Peter went and surprised me with chocolate today during my choreo rehearsal to help get rid of my headache/migraine and to my surprise, the chocolate actually did help. Must remember that for the future...
yawn, I took a 3 hour nap and I'm still sleepy. I'm off... Fin.