finals week
i took my first final today. ick. these silly classes are such a waste of time. like i need to be taking intro to computers... ugh...
i have a new roommate, Christin. shes from sacramento. she seems really nice and is so far, easily the best roommate i have EVER had. she was here for less than 24 hours and shed already done the dishes. i know that sounds silly but its awesome. ive never lived with a girl before, not really. i lived with k.hall in CA for a while but really i was always at Zs and she was always with R. we hardly saw each other.
i was showing beth pics last night of all the people i know and i ran across a pic of k.hall. i forgot that i had a pic of her. it was a huge blast from the past. i owe her an apology i think. we really hurt each other and i know im sorry that i acted the way i did. i wish i could tell her. id be surprised if i ever hear from her again tho. we were awful to each other at the end. i dont know if my being a bitch even matters to her. we havent spoken in nearly three years and she was my best friend. she the reason i moved to cali in the first place. (god i feel like im in the 5th step or something.) anyway. im sorry kel, if you can hear me.... i fucked up.
ok, now to the boy issues.... theyre all gone. pete packed out the rest of his stuff yesterday and that was hard. i love him, hes my friend, blah blah blah. im gonna miss him. he was sort of a rock for me for like 6 years. but if hes happy, then im happy for him. i hope he a kelly can really make this work. and honestly, im glad he came and got his stuff yesterday. ill see him at the English final and then i probably wont see him again. and then i can be done with it. barring any serious changes in my life, i just dont have room in it for him right now. not that he wants to be here anyways but its important to me that i dont want him anymore. i feel like i have some control if i want him gone, instead of him wanting to be gone. its fucked up but its me.
john and i are getting along better and better each time i see him. its nice. we went to a movie yesterday with my mom and, yanno, its hard not to love him. he said yesterday that its hard to hate someone who is hurting as much as i am. he did hate me for the whole pete thing and i dont blame him. but its nice to know that pete wrecking me had a positive outcome. john and i can be friends again, and i gotta say, thats a much more stable thing than me being with pete. id rather be johns friend than petes lover.
Isis has to go back to the vet tomorrow, she may have an infection where they cut her open on friday. so that sucks. but, i gotta make sure shes ok, shes my baby.
i got my tickets to denver today. i cant wait. its gonna be so awesome. i cant wait. so at least i have something to look forward to right?
i have a new roommate, Christin. shes from sacramento. she seems really nice and is so far, easily the best roommate i have EVER had. she was here for less than 24 hours and shed already done the dishes. i know that sounds silly but its awesome. ive never lived with a girl before, not really. i lived with k.hall in CA for a while but really i was always at Zs and she was always with R. we hardly saw each other.
i was showing beth pics last night of all the people i know and i ran across a pic of k.hall. i forgot that i had a pic of her. it was a huge blast from the past. i owe her an apology i think. we really hurt each other and i know im sorry that i acted the way i did. i wish i could tell her. id be surprised if i ever hear from her again tho. we were awful to each other at the end. i dont know if my being a bitch even matters to her. we havent spoken in nearly three years and she was my best friend. she the reason i moved to cali in the first place. (god i feel like im in the 5th step or something.) anyway. im sorry kel, if you can hear me.... i fucked up.
ok, now to the boy issues.... theyre all gone. pete packed out the rest of his stuff yesterday and that was hard. i love him, hes my friend, blah blah blah. im gonna miss him. he was sort of a rock for me for like 6 years. but if hes happy, then im happy for him. i hope he a kelly can really make this work. and honestly, im glad he came and got his stuff yesterday. ill see him at the English final and then i probably wont see him again. and then i can be done with it. barring any serious changes in my life, i just dont have room in it for him right now. not that he wants to be here anyways but its important to me that i dont want him anymore. i feel like i have some control if i want him gone, instead of him wanting to be gone. its fucked up but its me.
john and i are getting along better and better each time i see him. its nice. we went to a movie yesterday with my mom and, yanno, its hard not to love him. he said yesterday that its hard to hate someone who is hurting as much as i am. he did hate me for the whole pete thing and i dont blame him. but its nice to know that pete wrecking me had a positive outcome. john and i can be friends again, and i gotta say, thats a much more stable thing than me being with pete. id rather be johns friend than petes lover.
Isis has to go back to the vet tomorrow, she may have an infection where they cut her open on friday. so that sucks. but, i gotta make sure shes ok, shes my baby.
i got my tickets to denver today. i cant wait. its gonna be so awesome. i cant wait. so at least i have something to look forward to right?