between a rock and a hard place

[theatreguy470]

I'm having a hard time staying motivated. With everything. With my acting, getting in shape, eating right, etc. I think a large part of it is I have been working this tour since October and in 2 or 3 weeks I'm going to be back at square one. Agentless, Managerless, jobless. This has been my first BIG work so I guess its natural to feel like this. Its almost like theres this wall in front of me and I know I'll climb over it, but I feel like I'm standing at the foot of it going "do I really feel like climbing this?" Everytime I eat I have no desire to be healthy. I can feel it in my body that I've been slacking off at the gym. And I just signed and paid for a year contract.  I'm gonna pray about it and everything will be fine, its just scary having that blind faith. Going "Ok God, I'm done with this and know you have something in store after this, so what is it and when?" Not to mention I have no job lined up when I return aside from temping and auditions seem to be few and far between right now! Ofcourse all of this would be worldly negatives but I just feel in a rut. Poo!

There is a possibility of me working part time for my church on Sunday so pray that it goes through!!