Fragile

[theatregnome]

there is a girl i used to call my twin lying in a hospital bed. police say she is lucky to be alive. my cousin was in a car accident and broke her second vertebra, among other things, but her manicure is perfect, didn't even brake a nail. i saw her today and couldn't help but cry. i was just going to tell her i loved her and when she got out of the hospital i was gonna come stay a few days and we could watch chick-flicks and eat icecream. i didn't get past i love you. i talked to her three days ago, and now she's in icu, half the time she doesn't even know where she is. she doesn't remember the accident. she remembers getting in her car and starting to drive and then nothing until being in pain as some one pulled her from her car.
seeing her made me feel so helpless. i wanted to fix things make it better, but i can't. i can't even make her laugh because it moves her and that hurts.
well tonights been shitty. yay lots of crying, not that i needed more. been getting back in the habit again, oh yeah. anyway, i'm off
tg