job, relationships, majors, future career?
im trying to live in the moment to prevent myself from being stressed.
having a conversation with my dad about my future freaks me out to no end. i want to try out the hotel business, but i feel now that hes giving me advice, im being forced into something.
really, i wish i could work at the kennedy center but i really dont think im qualified for anything there.
my dad wants me to call this lady and ask about any opportunities for this winter break, which he says will open doors for an internship. i dont know what freaks me out, but i know i want to do something that fits me. i really dont trust my dad for telling me what i should do, especially when he pressured me to major in finance for god's sake...
so i guess thats really what this is. i dont know what i want and i dont know who to believe. the problem is is that my parents have it all figured out, and i dont have a clue, so my instinct is to listen to them. theres no harm in trying out corporate america and deciding its not for me i guess... im just so comfortable at wotr its going to be hard to leave for a job that i dont know if i want it. i mean, im still not sure im in the right majors...
ok, but so far its worked out for me. i picked penn state on a whim and my majors because i had to declare and they were the most obvious choices...
i know your job doesnt define you but its a big part of who you are, so basically im looking for something that reflects me. wolf trap did a great job, its a big part of who i am. ive out grown it, but i have a feeling its going to be difficult to find another job that matches my interests and personality as much as being a ycc and ranger has.
also, when i plan ahead, theres no point unless you incorporate all of the aspects into your planning...so brad is a big part of my life, but cant be factored into the equation...not at this point in our relationship or in our lives. i dont see how i can be so young but still have to think about things like this. how can you plan ahead for a future career if other aspects of your life are not set in stone? i mean, you dont. i know that. but thats just how i think.
at least i feel like this semester changed me, or at least reaffirmed part of who i am. just in my CAS group i felt more capable of being a leader than i have in the past. maybe it really is part of what i want to do as a career. but making friends and supervising employees is very different. maybe this summer will also give me more insight into this, treating wolf trap employees less as friends and more as coworkers.
i really want to be capable and well rounded. it seems i cant have it all however, not yet. this semester i got the grades and maintained my relationships (moreso with brad than anyone else, which has both positives and negatives), and made awesome friends in classes. however, i avoided the "networking" oppotunities i was given. so next semester, im going to work on that too. that term terrifies me for some reason, but i can start out small with familiar situations, in THON and PMA. so at least i'll feel somewhat comfortable.
julia told me all about her orgs and how theyre good for her resume. while i do think about enhancing my resume (constantly), i also want to be happy with how im living my life. i really really want a balance. in college i think im doing ok with that, maybe next semester i can spend less time doing hw and more time with friends and new people. but even in the future, i want this to be the case. i chose a business major because money is important to me, but also because i want to be knowlegable about the business world. knowing how to invest my money is also important. my business major explains how the world works, or at least part of the world that we live in. psychology explains why. i love how the majors go together so neatly, and make perfect sense for getting a job. but i miss the intellectual aspect of school. so, art history was amazing this semester, as was latin (even though it sucked), i still felt i wasnt just a dumb business/psych major, but will rounded in the classics and art. thats how i want my life to be! a balance.
so, hopefully, more art history classes in the future. my mom attempted to convince me that these classes are a waste of my time, and i should learn about finance or other classes to strengthen my major. but really, i would be so depressed to think that my future employer is more interested in an individual who has shaped their curriculum around their potential career. i want to be a better writer, go into museums and know what the art means, go to other countries and understand their culture, not just how their economy works.
im afraid i wont have enough time to learn everything i want to in college. there are so many classes i want to take, and im running out of time. now that im a junior im not wasting my time with intro classes anymore, but there are not enough credits in a semester for me to finish my majors and have enough time to learn sign language, more art history, linguistics, that race relations class...
but what can you do except read? im reading a pop history book right now, not usually my reading of choice, but it covers the cultural side of history. i like it.
ah theres not enough time. time to meet everyone thats out there or learn about everything. life takes over and the real world sets in at some point. i want to make sure that my job does not control my life like it controls my dad's. that is something im adamant about.
having a conversation with my dad about my future freaks me out to no end. i want to try out the hotel business, but i feel now that hes giving me advice, im being forced into something.
really, i wish i could work at the kennedy center but i really dont think im qualified for anything there.
my dad wants me to call this lady and ask about any opportunities for this winter break, which he says will open doors for an internship. i dont know what freaks me out, but i know i want to do something that fits me. i really dont trust my dad for telling me what i should do, especially when he pressured me to major in finance for god's sake...
so i guess thats really what this is. i dont know what i want and i dont know who to believe. the problem is is that my parents have it all figured out, and i dont have a clue, so my instinct is to listen to them. theres no harm in trying out corporate america and deciding its not for me i guess... im just so comfortable at wotr its going to be hard to leave for a job that i dont know if i want it. i mean, im still not sure im in the right majors...
ok, but so far its worked out for me. i picked penn state on a whim and my majors because i had to declare and they were the most obvious choices...
i know your job doesnt define you but its a big part of who you are, so basically im looking for something that reflects me. wolf trap did a great job, its a big part of who i am. ive out grown it, but i have a feeling its going to be difficult to find another job that matches my interests and personality as much as being a ycc and ranger has.
also, when i plan ahead, theres no point unless you incorporate all of the aspects into your planning...so brad is a big part of my life, but cant be factored into the equation...not at this point in our relationship or in our lives. i dont see how i can be so young but still have to think about things like this. how can you plan ahead for a future career if other aspects of your life are not set in stone? i mean, you dont. i know that. but thats just how i think.
at least i feel like this semester changed me, or at least reaffirmed part of who i am. just in my CAS group i felt more capable of being a leader than i have in the past. maybe it really is part of what i want to do as a career. but making friends and supervising employees is very different. maybe this summer will also give me more insight into this, treating wolf trap employees less as friends and more as coworkers.
i really want to be capable and well rounded. it seems i cant have it all however, not yet. this semester i got the grades and maintained my relationships (moreso with brad than anyone else, which has both positives and negatives), and made awesome friends in classes. however, i avoided the "networking" oppotunities i was given. so next semester, im going to work on that too. that term terrifies me for some reason, but i can start out small with familiar situations, in THON and PMA. so at least i'll feel somewhat comfortable.
julia told me all about her orgs and how theyre good for her resume. while i do think about enhancing my resume (constantly), i also want to be happy with how im living my life. i really really want a balance. in college i think im doing ok with that, maybe next semester i can spend less time doing hw and more time with friends and new people. but even in the future, i want this to be the case. i chose a business major because money is important to me, but also because i want to be knowlegable about the business world. knowing how to invest my money is also important. my business major explains how the world works, or at least part of the world that we live in. psychology explains why. i love how the majors go together so neatly, and make perfect sense for getting a job. but i miss the intellectual aspect of school. so, art history was amazing this semester, as was latin (even though it sucked), i still felt i wasnt just a dumb business/psych major, but will rounded in the classics and art. thats how i want my life to be! a balance.
so, hopefully, more art history classes in the future. my mom attempted to convince me that these classes are a waste of my time, and i should learn about finance or other classes to strengthen my major. but really, i would be so depressed to think that my future employer is more interested in an individual who has shaped their curriculum around their potential career. i want to be a better writer, go into museums and know what the art means, go to other countries and understand their culture, not just how their economy works.
im afraid i wont have enough time to learn everything i want to in college. there are so many classes i want to take, and im running out of time. now that im a junior im not wasting my time with intro classes anymore, but there are not enough credits in a semester for me to finish my majors and have enough time to learn sign language, more art history, linguistics, that race relations class...
but what can you do except read? im reading a pop history book right now, not usually my reading of choice, but it covers the cultural side of history. i like it.
ah theres not enough time. time to meet everyone thats out there or learn about everything. life takes over and the real world sets in at some point. i want to make sure that my job does not control my life like it controls my dad's. that is something im adamant about.