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i miss home...a lot.
and not just biloxi, but the idea of having a home to go to.
lately i've just felt so trapped at millsaps and a lot of people have been visiting home and it's just pointless for me, but i want to get away from here SO bad. granted i miss my family SO much, but it's a million times more stressful in biloxi right now then here and well, i just don't need that right now.
then saying all this just makes me feel extremely guilty and selfish because hell, i haven't had to live in my grandmother's house for a year and won't have to for another year because i do have my dorm room. my parents are just stuck.
maybe it's just because i never left here this summer, but nothing will do. the thought of getting away somewhere for a weekend sounds nice, but it's not the same as home.
i mean really, i'm being stupid and i hate myself for even feeling this way, but why can't i get excited about anything nowadays? i haven't felt like myself all semester.
end ridiculous emotional and way to personal for a blog entry. i mean really. what's wrong with me?
and not just biloxi, but the idea of having a home to go to.
lately i've just felt so trapped at millsaps and a lot of people have been visiting home and it's just pointless for me, but i want to get away from here SO bad. granted i miss my family SO much, but it's a million times more stressful in biloxi right now then here and well, i just don't need that right now.
then saying all this just makes me feel extremely guilty and selfish because hell, i haven't had to live in my grandmother's house for a year and won't have to for another year because i do have my dorm room. my parents are just stuck.
maybe it's just because i never left here this summer, but nothing will do. the thought of getting away somewhere for a weekend sounds nice, but it's not the same as home.
i mean really, i'm being stupid and i hate myself for even feeling this way, but why can't i get excited about anything nowadays? i haven't felt like myself all semester.
end ridiculous emotional and way to personal for a blog entry. i mean really. what's wrong with me?