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I havent spoke to Josh since 9:30pm 8/31. I think im going to lose my mind. I left my ipod upstairs so that i couldnt obsess over facebook and went down to work on the puzzle. While down there my brother asked me what was up with Joshs new status on facebook. I told him i didnt know, that i hadnt seen it. Phil then read it to me: "People dont change, they just put up a front to fool you into thinking they do". That cant possibly be about me. Could it? I know that i have changed and he claims to have seen change in me, but what if he was just messing with me.
Im doing my best not to let this get to me, but im the brink of freaking out. I refuse to say anuthing about it to him.
I asked him to end all conversation about the woulda coulda shoulda of our relationship. I dont know why he would want to continue a conversation that he never wants to make a reality...why put urself through the pain.
Honestly i still think hes very confused, really scares, and hanging with the wrong person for support.
I cant continue to fight though, at least not present my fight to him or anyone else for the matter.
As far as he is concerned.. Im done trying, i cant do it anymore. Not like this, with all the back and forth.
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