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It feels weird to not be interested in someone romantically. I know it's still too soon, and I know it will be for quite some time, but part of me is in such a hurry to be involved with someone that it is telling me to like everyone, which is not only stupid but illogical and impossible. It's so easy to forget what it's like to be alone. It's REALLY hard not to be able to just call someone and hear a comforting voice and know that if I need him, he'll find a way to be there for me, even if it's just in spirit. Soon enough, however, I will be comfortable enough with myself to be 100% certain that I do not need to be in a relationship--a fact I know to an extent, but one I need to fully comprehend.
I feel stupid for not knowing why this song is called Portions for Foxes:
There's blood in my mouth 'cause I've been biting my tongue all week
I keep on talkin' trash but I never say anything
And the talkin' leads to touchin'
and the touchin' leads to sex
and then there is no mystery left
And it's bad news
Baby I'm bad news
I'm just bad news, bad news, bad news
I know I'm alone if I'm with or without you
but just bein' around you offers me another form of relief
When the loneliness leads to bad dreams
and the bad dreams lead me to callin' you
and I call you and say "C'MERE!"
And it's bad news
Baby I'm bad news
I'm just bad news, bad news, bad news
And it's bad news
Baby it's bad news
It's just bad news, bad news, bad news
'Cause you're just damage control
for a walking corpse like me - like you
'Cause we'll all be
Portions for foxes
Yeah we'll all be
Portions for foxes
There's a pretty young thing in front of you
and she's real pretty and she's real into you
and then she's sleepin' inside of you
and the talkin' leads to touchin'
and the touchin' leads to sex
and then there is no mystery left
And it's bad news
I don't blame you
I do the same thing
I get lonely too
And you're bad news
My friends tell me to leave you
That you're bad news, bad news, bad news
You're bad news
Baby you're bad news
and you're bad news
Baby you're bad news
and you're bad news
I don't care I like you
and you're bad news
I don't care I like you
I like you
-Portions for Foxes
I'm only a woman
of flesh and bone
and I wept much-
We all do
I thought I might die alone
But I have
never never never
never never never
never never never
never never met you
So baby be good to me
I got nothing to give you
you see
Except
Everything everything
everything everything
all the good and the bad
'Cause I've been bad
I've lied, cheated, stolen and been ungrateful for what I had
And I'm afraid habits rule my waking life
I'm scared and I'm runnin' in my sleep
For you
But all the oceans, and rivers and showers
will wash it all away and make me clean for you
'Cause I have
never never never
never never never
never never never
never never met you
So lets take a loan out
put it down on a house
in a place we've never lived
in a place that exists
in the pages of scripts
and the songs that they sing
and all of the beautiful things
that make you weep but
don't have to make you weak
'Cause I've
never never never never
never never never never
never never never never
never never never never
never never never never
never never never never
never never never never
loved someone the way
that I loved you
-I Never
And it's only doubts that we're counting
on fingers broken long ago
I read with every broken heart
we should become more adventurous
And if you banish me from your profits
And if I get banished from the kingdom up above
I'd sacrifice money and heaven all for love
Let me be loved
Let me be loved
And if my brain quits
Well I guess then that's just it
And if my hands stop workin'
You can call me lazy
And if I get pregnant
I guess i'll just have the baby
Let it be loved
Let me be loved
I've been tryin' to nod my head
But it's like I've got a broken neck
I wanna say I will
As my last testament
For me to be saved and you to be brave
We don't have to walk down that aisle
Because if marriage ain't enough well
At least we'll be loved
I felt the wind on my cheek
Comin' down from the east
And thought about how we are all
As numerous as leaves on trees
And maybe ours is the cause of all
Mankind getting love make more
Try to stay alive
I've been tryin' to nod my head
But it's like I've got a broken neck
I wanna say I will
As my last testament
For me to be saved and you to be brave
We don't have to walk down that isle
Because if marriage ain't enough well
At least we'll be loved
-More Adventurous
The most offensive comment of the past few days was said to KC by her ex-boyfriend: "When David died, I was envious of him." People make me sick.