Silence...

[theatrebanana86]

We talked in class today about the things that we use to try to fill our "abyss." This abyss is made by the fact that apparently our mothers didn't hold us enough. Now, my mom paid CONSTANT attention to me when I was a baby, because she was a stay at home mom and I was the only child for 6 years. And then the homeschooling bit....so I was always with my mom.
Anyway, the abyss filling stuff is a lot of stuff that I worry about now. It's not stuff I used to worry about until I got here. Personally, I never worried about having a boyfriend. People would ask me if I had a boyfriend and for a while I wanted to be like I DON'T FUCKING CARE if I have a boyfriend, I want to BE for a while and whatever happens, happens. Then I thought there was something wrong with me because the societal pressure was kind of hardcore there, even though I don't give a fuck if I have a boyfriend. I also never used to have any desire to ever have a drink or do anything of that sort. Now, I do. I feel empty and unfulfilled now. Things used to make sense. Now, they don't. Apparently I'm easily influenced by society's pressures....therefore making me hate myself just a little bit more everyday.

Conclusion?

Society sucks.