Caught in a Blizzard...
It's snowing like a mother outside...snowing so hard that I can't see the little food mart that is half a block away from my building. The snow has been falling for the past thirty six hours or so and we have a shit load of it. Oh and it is now 4:20...if I was my old self I would probably be getting high agt the moment. But nope...can't even do that...broke as hell...but I did go to the hookah lounge last night...yes...in the blizzard...hookah is well worth it. I slept in until like 2:00 today and just got a shower like fifteen minutes ago...definitely a lazy day...but I did practice my geetar for like two hours...that was fun...my fingers hurt like hell...but it's okay...cuz I figure if I am gonna be a famous chick moviestar...I might as well be a famous chick rockstar on the side. So, I taught myself the general ideas of Aerosmith's Dream On and ACDC's Hells Bells...fucking hard songs to play.
Anyway...I am so lonely right now...I want a boyfriend so bad...someone to come over and keep me warm throughout this god awful blizzard...someone who likes me and wants to be with me...someone who would just curl up in my tiny twin size bed with me and fall asleep...and yada yada and more yada...God I am so pothetic...But you know what I want more than that? I want to be in a play so bad...it has been almost a year since my last show and it is eating me alive....I want that rush of excitement and amusement of being onstage in front of a house full of people...I want the after show feeling of people commending me on how I did a good job...even if it wasn't my best performance...and I want the fucking people who don't even know if they are going to pursue acting as a career after college to just quit getting parts in shows...so the folks like me who want to be on the big stage and in the big lights a chance...GODDAMN!!!
Maybe I am about to have my period and that is why I am so fucking lonely and irritable today...I don't know...but I am tired of being thought of as just a friend...or "one of the guys"...I hate it...On a better note...five days until I see my grammy and grandpa and mom and Ty and the rest of the fam damily...
GOD I NEED A MAN!!!
Anyway...I am so lonely right now...I want a boyfriend so bad...someone to come over and keep me warm throughout this god awful blizzard...someone who likes me and wants to be with me...someone who would just curl up in my tiny twin size bed with me and fall asleep...and yada yada and more yada...God I am so pothetic...But you know what I want more than that? I want to be in a play so bad...it has been almost a year since my last show and it is eating me alive....I want that rush of excitement and amusement of being onstage in front of a house full of people...I want the after show feeling of people commending me on how I did a good job...even if it wasn't my best performance...and I want the fucking people who don't even know if they are going to pursue acting as a career after college to just quit getting parts in shows...so the folks like me who want to be on the big stage and in the big lights a chance...GODDAMN!!!
Maybe I am about to have my period and that is why I am so fucking lonely and irritable today...I don't know...but I am tired of being thought of as just a friend...or "one of the guys"...I hate it...On a better note...five days until I see my grammy and grandpa and mom and Ty and the rest of the fam damily...
GOD I NEED A MAN!!!