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So, I think I might have come to terms with the idea of death. Death isn't all bad. I have realized that when my Grandpa passed away he was in pain. He was no longer the strong man that I looked up to. He wasn't able to do his chores he used to do, he wasn't able to take care of himself, and above all, he wasn't able to walk. He was a man of strength and stature and needed no help with whatever he put his mind to. He was my biggest fan and he loved us as much as anyone could. He gave me the idea that I could do whatever I set my mind and heart to do. I can and will succeed in everything. You see, his death brought a lot of heartache and pain to our family. I didn't deal very well with losing him and I also did not want to talk about it. I wanted to shut it out and not think about it at all. Now that I have realized that if my grandpa had lived much longer he would have become depressed and weaker then ever. I now know that as much as I would have loved for my grandpa to see me reach my dreams, I wanted even more for him to not be in pain.
I think about all of the deaths that I have had to deal with and all, except a few, have been from natural causes. I know that they are happy and are together like they were when they were all alive. The happiness that they had on earth has gone with them and they are no longer in pain. I know that everyone tells people that when others pass away they are no longer in pain, blah, blah, blah......But no one ever comes to terms with that until they have actually come to the conclusion themselves. It has nothing to do with how they were told and everything to do with the unanswered questions.
Okay, that is enough for today. Off to Reefer Madness rehearsal! I'm just soooooo happy and excited to be involved with this show. It will be utterly amazing and I think people will be pleasantly surprised!
I think about all of the deaths that I have had to deal with and all, except a few, have been from natural causes. I know that they are happy and are together like they were when they were all alive. The happiness that they had on earth has gone with them and they are no longer in pain. I know that everyone tells people that when others pass away they are no longer in pain, blah, blah, blah......But no one ever comes to terms with that until they have actually come to the conclusion themselves. It has nothing to do with how they were told and everything to do with the unanswered questions.
Okay, that is enough for today. Off to Reefer Madness rehearsal! I'm just soooooo happy and excited to be involved with this show. It will be utterly amazing and I think people will be pleasantly surprised!