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it's been quite awhile since i have updated, it also has been quite awhile since i've talked to, seen, or heard for more than 2 minutes about my friends. i've been secluded in my little northshore group. and i keep thinking to myself why am i here. i dont feel good enough to be there. i still try as hard as i can but always i feel inadequate. wondering why im here and i have like no talent compared to these people. i am such a downer. i think it may be cause i'm spoiled. i've always had a role and now i really don't and im upset. i think i've been venting like this since wednesday but whatever. i have to stop. and i miss everyone and i ruined things with caitlyn pretty much because i haven't been able to keep in touch with her. dammit URGH! ok going to go back to meditating now. hope things get better.