I'm soooooo dislikable!!!!
I start back at Klein's on Tuesday. It will be kind of cool working a mindless job that takes no intelligence and that I really don't care about, and earn much needed money. On the downside, I will smell like grocery store and have to deal with people talking down to me. I could get a better job...but that takes effort, and considering I only have like two months to work, I don't want to waste the time applying and training at another place.
Apparently some girl that worked at Klein's then NTB and is working at Klein's again, doesn't like me, but I really have no idea who she is. When asked if she knew me I got an "eww, I don't like her." So naturally I obsessed about it all night, and dwelled on the fact that someone I didn't even know would dislike me when, to my belief, I am a rather unoffensive person, especially to people I don't know. After much brooding, I came to the conclusion that despite my contrary belief, there are probably bunches of people that arbitrarilly dislike me (or anyone for that matter)and that's just life I suppose. It's not that I blame her though, I seem stand offish at times, and unintentionally blow of my friends, and for that I am an asshole, my apologies, but that's just mean. So I was going to find out who she is and get everyone who works their to be mean to her...and then I realized I wasn't in middle school, and that I was psychotic, and that it's pretty good to be me so in the grand scheme of things it really doesn't matter at all.
Then I came to the conclusion that I care to much. Then I stopped. And then I started feeling much better.
AND!!! He had my back, like always, because he is fantastic, but I didn't tell him because I was too busy bitching and embarrassed by the fact that I am unlikable, like any person, except Johnny Depp.
Oh, and a resolution that came from Cosmopolitan magazine...it wasn't that I didn't trust the people in my life, but rather I didn't trust myself to keep them, and their attention/ interest. So I stopped doing that. Because that is dumb.
My unwanted input on other situations:
-once something is done, it has to be the right thing because you can't go back in time, and to hope to do so is futile. You also can't assume something is there because it has always been there and you and everyone else want it to be there. However, if there is now a void, it will be blatantly obvious to you, and it will become a wonderful chance for growth if you reverse the results, and the actions which obviously can't be changed will make you realize so so much, and make everything else more meaningful in the long run, because the absolute final result actually took work, and it hurt to get there. And if you realize it was the right thing...I guess that happens. This may make no sense, but this is just from personal experience and whatnot.
-Dude, glasses so close to a stage, not a good idea...next time duck tape them to your forehead maybe?
-Buck up little camper.
Apparently some girl that worked at Klein's then NTB and is working at Klein's again, doesn't like me, but I really have no idea who she is. When asked if she knew me I got an "eww, I don't like her." So naturally I obsessed about it all night, and dwelled on the fact that someone I didn't even know would dislike me when, to my belief, I am a rather unoffensive person, especially to people I don't know. After much brooding, I came to the conclusion that despite my contrary belief, there are probably bunches of people that arbitrarilly dislike me (or anyone for that matter)and that's just life I suppose. It's not that I blame her though, I seem stand offish at times, and unintentionally blow of my friends, and for that I am an asshole, my apologies, but that's just mean. So I was going to find out who she is and get everyone who works their to be mean to her...and then I realized I wasn't in middle school, and that I was psychotic, and that it's pretty good to be me so in the grand scheme of things it really doesn't matter at all.
Then I came to the conclusion that I care to much. Then I stopped. And then I started feeling much better.
AND!!! He had my back, like always, because he is fantastic, but I didn't tell him because I was too busy bitching and embarrassed by the fact that I am unlikable, like any person, except Johnny Depp.
Oh, and a resolution that came from Cosmopolitan magazine...it wasn't that I didn't trust the people in my life, but rather I didn't trust myself to keep them, and their attention/ interest. So I stopped doing that. Because that is dumb.
My unwanted input on other situations:
-once something is done, it has to be the right thing because you can't go back in time, and to hope to do so is futile. You also can't assume something is there because it has always been there and you and everyone else want it to be there. However, if there is now a void, it will be blatantly obvious to you, and it will become a wonderful chance for growth if you reverse the results, and the actions which obviously can't be changed will make you realize so so much, and make everything else more meaningful in the long run, because the absolute final result actually took work, and it hurt to get there. And if you realize it was the right thing...I guess that happens. This may make no sense, but this is just from personal experience and whatnot.
-Dude, glasses so close to a stage, not a good idea...next time duck tape them to your forehead maybe?
-Buck up little camper.