Hmm.....
I just read bryan's live journal.....For those of you who haven't been up on things, or for those of you who don't even know Bryan, let me fill you in real quick.
Bryan Thomas; Amazingly talented musician, skilled specifically in the art of singing and piano. Practices more than any person I know on campus, and is my accompanist for my voice lessons, juries, and other such things...etc etc. Bryan is the ONE person that when I'm feeling low ::ahem:: sweeny todd cast list ::ahem:: Will tell me why he didn't think I got cast, and that if he were casting the show, that he doesn't think he would have cast me, but then reassure me that he has NO doubt, worries or any concerns that I'll make it in this business. He tells me what I need to fix, and then sincerely tells me my strong points. When he tells me my weaknesses, he has the best way of saying it very constructively, so that I dont' leave feeling hurt or pissed off...But I feel improved.
Bryan in short, is a wonderful being.
Anyways, the whole point of that is that yesterday, or now it would be two days ago, bryan's grandfather died. Bryan left late this evening to be present at the viewing and funeral and be with his family. He wil be gone for a week. Bryan had a lot of anger in his last journal entry, and in it he put out a persona thank you saying that I went above and beyond in contacting him to make sure he was ok. I did more than the "obligatory I'm sorry".
Here's why I'm writing about this. In the past two days, I didn't feel like I was doing more than normal, or more than others. In fact I found myself thinking "I really should do something for bryan, but he's leaving for a week." I felt like i wasn't doing enough for him. But it would seem that I was attempting to me there for him more than anyone else. Which brings me tot he point of, where is the worlds sympathy? And again, I was hanging out with a few of the freshmen tongiht, and sasha brought up a very good point. So many of the freshmen are complaining about being "lonely" and wanting "a cuddle buddy". I understand how they feel, some are feeling home sick, and when you come to school, your so used to seeing the people that have an unconditional love for you. I had the same feeling last year. I went from hugs from my paretns and best friends every day of my life, to no hugs, or hugs from people who could possibly hate you the next day becasue they heard a rumour about you. The generic "I love you" around here doesn't mean anything because you don't have history with these people. So at this time last year, I was feeling very lonely. But sasha brought up a very good point that everyone is feeling sorry for themselves meanwhile there are homeless people in the south, there IS no New Orleans now, people have lost there homes, there loved ones, and we havet he audactiy to complain about being lonely? If anything we should be calling our families, and telling them how blessed we are, and the friends at school we have made telling them that we do appreciate them thus far, and cut out all pettiness.
I just don't understand where the worlds compassion is anymore. Everyone is so focused on "me me me". They want such instant gratification, and they want everything for themselves. Someone died? Oh, I'm sorry....now back to me.
It makes me sick actually, and makes me bitter.
Bryan said the other day that the Mayan Calendar predicts that the world will end Dec. 20th 2012. In a way, I don't have a problem with that. Let these self righteous people who think the world revovles around them deal with God. I know that guy will put them in there place.
Alright, nowt hat I got that off my chest, I'm going to bed. I hope it was all coherent and made sense.
Love always,
Mallory
Bryan Thomas; Amazingly talented musician, skilled specifically in the art of singing and piano. Practices more than any person I know on campus, and is my accompanist for my voice lessons, juries, and other such things...etc etc. Bryan is the ONE person that when I'm feeling low ::ahem:: sweeny todd cast list ::ahem:: Will tell me why he didn't think I got cast, and that if he were casting the show, that he doesn't think he would have cast me, but then reassure me that he has NO doubt, worries or any concerns that I'll make it in this business. He tells me what I need to fix, and then sincerely tells me my strong points. When he tells me my weaknesses, he has the best way of saying it very constructively, so that I dont' leave feeling hurt or pissed off...But I feel improved.
Bryan in short, is a wonderful being.
Anyways, the whole point of that is that yesterday, or now it would be two days ago, bryan's grandfather died. Bryan left late this evening to be present at the viewing and funeral and be with his family. He wil be gone for a week. Bryan had a lot of anger in his last journal entry, and in it he put out a persona thank you saying that I went above and beyond in contacting him to make sure he was ok. I did more than the "obligatory I'm sorry".
Here's why I'm writing about this. In the past two days, I didn't feel like I was doing more than normal, or more than others. In fact I found myself thinking "I really should do something for bryan, but he's leaving for a week." I felt like i wasn't doing enough for him. But it would seem that I was attempting to me there for him more than anyone else. Which brings me tot he point of, where is the worlds sympathy? And again, I was hanging out with a few of the freshmen tongiht, and sasha brought up a very good point. So many of the freshmen are complaining about being "lonely" and wanting "a cuddle buddy". I understand how they feel, some are feeling home sick, and when you come to school, your so used to seeing the people that have an unconditional love for you. I had the same feeling last year. I went from hugs from my paretns and best friends every day of my life, to no hugs, or hugs from people who could possibly hate you the next day becasue they heard a rumour about you. The generic "I love you" around here doesn't mean anything because you don't have history with these people. So at this time last year, I was feeling very lonely. But sasha brought up a very good point that everyone is feeling sorry for themselves meanwhile there are homeless people in the south, there IS no New Orleans now, people have lost there homes, there loved ones, and we havet he audactiy to complain about being lonely? If anything we should be calling our families, and telling them how blessed we are, and the friends at school we have made telling them that we do appreciate them thus far, and cut out all pettiness.
I just don't understand where the worlds compassion is anymore. Everyone is so focused on "me me me". They want such instant gratification, and they want everything for themselves. Someone died? Oh, I'm sorry....now back to me.
It makes me sick actually, and makes me bitter.
Bryan said the other day that the Mayan Calendar predicts that the world will end Dec. 20th 2012. In a way, I don't have a problem with that. Let these self righteous people who think the world revovles around them deal with God. I know that guy will put them in there place.
Alright, nowt hat I got that off my chest, I'm going to bed. I hope it was all coherent and made sense.
Love always,
Mallory