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I feel soo much better...
There is closure, there is happiness, and there is a friendship. Thank God...
I have come to realize a lot. And I feel a lot better about it all..
The boy thing... well... Man... see... i have been single for 16 months.
*1* I miss HIM soo much, but all that matters to me is that we are still good friends. I love him, and ALWAYS will... He was the first one that I fell in love wiht and loved at the same time... he was simply AMAZING. BUt to us, our friendship is more important than anything.
~I say this to him... Thank you for putting sanity in my life when we were together babe, and NOW... when we are just friends... I love you and always will, and thank you soo much for EVERYTHING you have done for me... whether you realize it or not..
~He says this to me... You changed me to with self realizations I cant describe or begin to thank you for. You allowed me to be "a Noel". Not just some other guy.
-- What does this have to say about our relationship, that still stands... THANK GOD!!
*2* There is one guy that yeah... I have dated 2 times, this may be a 3rd time, but this one will be the charm, I hope and God I pray. He has changed a lot since becoming daddy, and I love it... I love him, still. He is a great guy, with a wonderful personality. He and I have become close again. I don't think I can let him go again, though. It will hurt too much. He and I met on freak accident, and connected immediately. We never broke up on ugly terms, it was simply b/c we never saw each other with the exception of when I was laying next to him, while he was sleeping b/c he had just got off of work, and he didn't have to be up til 4:30. He works nights, and I have school and work during the day... we have complete opposite schedules, but on weekends, that changes.. he doesn't work on Fridays... and he has Aeden all the time... it's awesome... That may happen
*3* Then you have one last person... He and I have a connection, with similar interests, that just click. He and I have soo much in common. I love it. I love every minute of it. I wish that I could see him, or hear his voice, EVERY day... he is just simply amazing. The circumstances were of bad timing, though. But that has all changed now. He is perfect... He has a great personality, a heart of gold, and is very family oriented. That is always VERY important to me. He is just a great guy... And things may begin to progress in that. WHich would be sweet.
~I don't know what i am going to do. I should stay single, but that just seems to get me in more and more trouble b/c I don't know how to say no, or how to pass up a great time... LOL!! Sooo yeah... what to do?~
Anyways, Then you have this whole thing with school... I really want to just take a semester off... Get money, and have money for myself... I owe my grandparents money for this semester. I just stopped caring. Is that horrible?! I was soo excited. I was going to graduate in the Spring.. shitt dude.. I have been going for too long... I need a small break... that is all... is there somehting wrong with that?I guess there must be.
~I also want to get away... go away... be gone for a week... I was going to be gone for 5-6 days in November, I was going to AZ to go see my family down there... but noooo... i can't, and i wont be b/c I don't have the money... and my grandparents won't give it to me b/c yeah...
I don't know...
I love my brother... and miss the OLD him...
I will be back latta!!
I miss this... it is better than.... MYSPACE!!
~Janie
It's amazing!!!!
There is closure, there is happiness, and there is a friendship. Thank God...
I have come to realize a lot. And I feel a lot better about it all..
The boy thing... well... Man... see... i have been single for 16 months.
*1* I miss HIM soo much, but all that matters to me is that we are still good friends. I love him, and ALWAYS will... He was the first one that I fell in love wiht and loved at the same time... he was simply AMAZING. BUt to us, our friendship is more important than anything.
~I say this to him... Thank you for putting sanity in my life when we were together babe, and NOW... when we are just friends... I love you and always will, and thank you soo much for EVERYTHING you have done for me... whether you realize it or not..
~He says this to me... You changed me to with self realizations I cant describe or begin to thank you for. You allowed me to be "a Noel". Not just some other guy.
-- What does this have to say about our relationship, that still stands... THANK GOD!!
*2* There is one guy that yeah... I have dated 2 times, this may be a 3rd time, but this one will be the charm, I hope and God I pray. He has changed a lot since becoming daddy, and I love it... I love him, still. He is a great guy, with a wonderful personality. He and I have become close again. I don't think I can let him go again, though. It will hurt too much. He and I met on freak accident, and connected immediately. We never broke up on ugly terms, it was simply b/c we never saw each other with the exception of when I was laying next to him, while he was sleeping b/c he had just got off of work, and he didn't have to be up til 4:30. He works nights, and I have school and work during the day... we have complete opposite schedules, but on weekends, that changes.. he doesn't work on Fridays... and he has Aeden all the time... it's awesome... That may happen
*3* Then you have one last person... He and I have a connection, with similar interests, that just click. He and I have soo much in common. I love it. I love every minute of it. I wish that I could see him, or hear his voice, EVERY day... he is just simply amazing. The circumstances were of bad timing, though. But that has all changed now. He is perfect... He has a great personality, a heart of gold, and is very family oriented. That is always VERY important to me. He is just a great guy... And things may begin to progress in that. WHich would be sweet.
~I don't know what i am going to do. I should stay single, but that just seems to get me in more and more trouble b/c I don't know how to say no, or how to pass up a great time... LOL!! Sooo yeah... what to do?~
Anyways, Then you have this whole thing with school... I really want to just take a semester off... Get money, and have money for myself... I owe my grandparents money for this semester. I just stopped caring. Is that horrible?! I was soo excited. I was going to graduate in the Spring.. shitt dude.. I have been going for too long... I need a small break... that is all... is there somehting wrong with that?I guess there must be.
~I also want to get away... go away... be gone for a week... I was going to be gone for 5-6 days in November, I was going to AZ to go see my family down there... but noooo... i can't, and i wont be b/c I don't have the money... and my grandparents won't give it to me b/c yeah...
I don't know...
I love my brother... and miss the OLD him...
I will be back latta!!
I miss this... it is better than.... MYSPACE!!
~Janie
It's amazing!!!!