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So...
You know what I JUST realized. I used to measure time by who I was dating. "Oh, that happened when I was dating Jesse," or "oh, that was back when Alan and I were going out." I don't do that anymore. I measure time by shows. It's now "back during Foreigner," or "when I did Wizard of Oz." Which I think is a good thing. Maybe it's time I stopped focusing so damn much on "the rest of my life with someone" and start just focusing on the rest of my life...period. I get so good at getting in really long relationships that seem to go nowhere. I don't want that this time...but I'm also still trying to figure out how exactly to avoid it. I'm also still figuring out how to not slip into past behavior when I'm bored. I'm doing a damn fine job of it so far...
I'm >< that close to saying screw it and basically starting over in school. I'll still get my degree here at RCC...but I really think I want to get a BFA in theatre. That would require me to basically start back at the beginning. I could still go to Eastern maybe next year and get a BA in theatre...but it's just not the same. I really want to submerge myself in this. I need to kick myself in the ass and start really buckling down this semester. I'm THREE classes away from graduating...
I've been having a lot of nice talks with a lot of different people. Some people that I've never really seen, some that I haven't seen in ages, some that I see more often than I'd like. But all have made my days a little brighter and a little more tolerable. Thanks everyone!
IRL started this week. Eeep.
You know what I JUST realized. I used to measure time by who I was dating. "Oh, that happened when I was dating Jesse," or "oh, that was back when Alan and I were going out." I don't do that anymore. I measure time by shows. It's now "back during Foreigner," or "when I did Wizard of Oz." Which I think is a good thing. Maybe it's time I stopped focusing so damn much on "the rest of my life with someone" and start just focusing on the rest of my life...period. I get so good at getting in really long relationships that seem to go nowhere. I don't want that this time...but I'm also still trying to figure out how exactly to avoid it. I'm also still figuring out how to not slip into past behavior when I'm bored. I'm doing a damn fine job of it so far...
I'm >< that close to saying screw it and basically starting over in school. I'll still get my degree here at RCC...but I really think I want to get a BFA in theatre. That would require me to basically start back at the beginning. I could still go to Eastern maybe next year and get a BA in theatre...but it's just not the same. I really want to submerge myself in this. I need to kick myself in the ass and start really buckling down this semester. I'm THREE classes away from graduating...
I've been having a lot of nice talks with a lot of different people. Some people that I've never really seen, some that I haven't seen in ages, some that I see more often than I'd like. But all have made my days a little brighter and a little more tolerable. Thanks everyone!
IRL started this week. Eeep.