the defenistration of andy 2006
sometimes i love him and others i want to defennistrate him. i hate feeling like this. i feel like i'm never good enough for him and i always have to share him with therese. it isn't far. i am having such a hard time with everything right now(of course the weekend before mid-terms). i am depressed and no one cares, because no one else here is. i need to talk with my real friends who never call me anymore, and i need to get the heck out of this place before my depression gets worse. the worst part of all of this is that i can't talk to anyone about this because a) they don't get it at all, b) they are the source, c) they live across the country, or d) i am the stable one in the relationship and it would ruin everything.
why do i need to feel like the stable person all the time. did people ever think that maybe i can have a hard time every once in a while, right now in particular?
why do i need to feel like the stable person all the time. did people ever think that maybe i can have a hard time every once in a while, right now in particular?