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I got my braces back on today. I have no idea how I'm even going to be able to do Midsummer. I feel like I can barely talk... like my mouth isn't big enough to fit all this metal. At least this time I get the clear kind on top, but I can already feel my lips starting to cut.
I'm tired of people holding such high expectations for me and then being all disappointed when I don't meet them. If I'm already a failure, why does everyone have to rub salt in the wound?
I'm also having technical difficulties pulling together a portfolio. It's a lot of picking and choosing. I know I have the skill; the problem is putting together a presentable collection that shows my strength and demonstrates the skill. I might have a hard time explaining that Crayola colored pencils is my color craft, because I don't have photoshop and prismas cost a gazillion dollars, so I guess I'll have to be pretty excuse-savvy. I don't know yet. I also have to scan everything and make print-outs of it to send (and include the dimensions, yada yada), and for the pictures that are too big to scan, I've found an opportunity to use my dad's digital camera (mwahaha) and finally learn how to work it. (It's not just like a normal one, it's this really complicated one, so good luck to me). So then I'll upload the pictures and *print!* Fun!!!
On that subject, I GOT A NEW SKETCHBOOK!!!
I've been watching the movie Titanic this past week to compare it to historical fact. The last time I saw it was a while ago, I guess. The History Channel is airing a program on its new discoveries (this Sunday @ 9) and I'm sooo excited. I'm a geek, yes, but I've been obsessed with the subject long before the movie came out, so now I get to find out more stuff!!!
Upon watching more closely this time, I've realized how much the movie LEFT OUT. The movie could have done a better job of showing Ct. Smith's thought process, his relationship with Ismay, and more about the construction of the ship itself (which would probably be another movie all on its own). AND the movie completely left out the part about how before it even left the docks at Southampton it just barely collided with another smaller ship. (But it didn't, thanks to a really fast tugboat. Go figure.)
It could have at least mentioned the Titanic's discovery in 1985 by Dr. Robert Ballard.
And the movie ended before it got to the trials. Remember the one boat with only 12 people in it? Lady Duff Gordon and a few other rich people were charged with bribing a crew member into keeping only those people in the boat, being fully aware that there weren't enough boats for everyone. So they left before the boat could be filled. Why she did that, I don't really remember, so I should probably look up more on that before I go on.
Also, architects and scientists denied eye-witness accounts of the sinking when people said, "uhm, hey, the ship actually broke in two." The scientists just claimed it wasn't true because of Andrew's design. Which is kind of stupid, because not only did they brush off the people that were THERE, but after everyone said that the ship was unsinkable and it did sink, what reason would they have had to doubt the manner of sinking? So, for the longest time, everyone thought that the ship sank as a whole until 1985, which is why Ballard's discovery is so IMPORTANT. Not only did he find the location, but he proved all the dumb scientists wrong!!! Isn't that a much better story to include than just some guy in a Russian submersible looking for a stupid rock? I think it is.
The only good thing I can say is that I never fully appreciated the cinematography as much as I did this time. It's way cool, and very well executed.
[edit]: Waah! My computer got infected and I'm getting all these pr0n pop-ups!!! o_O;; Shit. That gives me something else to fix. ~_~
I'm tired of people holding such high expectations for me and then being all disappointed when I don't meet them. If I'm already a failure, why does everyone have to rub salt in the wound?
I'm also having technical difficulties pulling together a portfolio. It's a lot of picking and choosing. I know I have the skill; the problem is putting together a presentable collection that shows my strength and demonstrates the skill. I might have a hard time explaining that Crayola colored pencils is my color craft, because I don't have photoshop and prismas cost a gazillion dollars, so I guess I'll have to be pretty excuse-savvy. I don't know yet. I also have to scan everything and make print-outs of it to send (and include the dimensions, yada yada), and for the pictures that are too big to scan, I've found an opportunity to use my dad's digital camera (mwahaha) and finally learn how to work it. (It's not just like a normal one, it's this really complicated one, so good luck to me). So then I'll upload the pictures and *print!* Fun!!!
On that subject, I GOT A NEW SKETCHBOOK!!!
I've been watching the movie Titanic this past week to compare it to historical fact. The last time I saw it was a while ago, I guess. The History Channel is airing a program on its new discoveries (this Sunday @ 9) and I'm sooo excited. I'm a geek, yes, but I've been obsessed with the subject long before the movie came out, so now I get to find out more stuff!!!
Upon watching more closely this time, I've realized how much the movie LEFT OUT. The movie could have done a better job of showing Ct. Smith's thought process, his relationship with Ismay, and more about the construction of the ship itself (which would probably be another movie all on its own). AND the movie completely left out the part about how before it even left the docks at Southampton it just barely collided with another smaller ship. (But it didn't, thanks to a really fast tugboat. Go figure.)
It could have at least mentioned the Titanic's discovery in 1985 by Dr. Robert Ballard.
And the movie ended before it got to the trials. Remember the one boat with only 12 people in it? Lady Duff Gordon and a few other rich people were charged with bribing a crew member into keeping only those people in the boat, being fully aware that there weren't enough boats for everyone. So they left before the boat could be filled. Why she did that, I don't really remember, so I should probably look up more on that before I go on.
Also, architects and scientists denied eye-witness accounts of the sinking when people said, "uhm, hey, the ship actually broke in two." The scientists just claimed it wasn't true because of Andrew's design. Which is kind of stupid, because not only did they brush off the people that were THERE, but after everyone said that the ship was unsinkable and it did sink, what reason would they have had to doubt the manner of sinking? So, for the longest time, everyone thought that the ship sank as a whole until 1985, which is why Ballard's discovery is so IMPORTANT. Not only did he find the location, but he proved all the dumb scientists wrong!!! Isn't that a much better story to include than just some guy in a Russian submersible looking for a stupid rock? I think it is.
The only good thing I can say is that I never fully appreciated the cinematography as much as I did this time. It's way cool, and very well executed.
[edit]: Waah! My computer got infected and I'm getting all these pr0n pop-ups!!! o_O;; Shit. That gives me something else to fix. ~_~