scattered thoughts seem to spill onto the keyboard

[theapplesauce]

It takes just one. Just one thought to open the flood gates in eternal internal mind combustion taking me back to the beginning where I first left off in this race. Lept off the face of the earth-the beginning, my birth, my death, the end?? Nope. Just a transition. Just a waiting room to move on to the next level. Death is just coming full circle back to where you were before… remember? Its all right there in front of you. Your hand? No… its only a body… look closer. your sense of touch??? Nooooo! That’s just an illusion… look deeper. Cells??? Merely an expression of the formula that has been set in your DNA to repeat itself until infinity--- that moment when all is one---death---infinity---is one… come back--- not cells--- the atoms??? The atoms in the tip of my finger which are the same atoms in the tip of a sewing needle which are the same atoms on the tip of an iceberg---but what’s under the surface?? Total microscoping of space and time. How small are atoms??? Yet they have the same structure as our universe. Are we not simply electrons traveling along the face of this planet- some of us are static, some of us dynamic, none the less we are all part of the same building blocks. Things get bigger and bigger and giganticker and humungouser--- things get smaller and tinier and teenier and weinier-from an atom to a molecule, from a molecule to a cell, from a cell to a body, from a body to a planet from a planet to a galaxy from a galaxy to a universe from a universe to an ocean of membranic unstable uniformaly simultaneous spontinaeity living in every direction but forward, every inspection but inward, every dissection but life continues like a wheel, yin yang, balance---center-focus-point-laugh-cry-kiss-weep-love-stammer-glamour-fame?-lame.-drop your suitcase here and move onto the very near future where everything is now again, but in a couple seconds it might be…nope… no different… just now again… but maybe in 10 years it could be-----now again---wait a minute in the past it was… being created now… shit man-cant get away-its all right her-right now-you’re creating your past now- the future only happens in the now, it will eventually come before you know it-orgasm without you-peak in its own loveliness and prosperity-proterity-- living like the reason we gave tomorrow for being here today---like live like a madman-not mad angry but mad MAD like the hatter on Saturday-its lovely but everyday is Saturday-what day is today??? Yesterday has gone too quickly and tomorrow is not coming fast enough. Drop it---it’s done. All gone. Bye bye-dang it was beautiful to think for a second that life can be anything youu want it to be-damn it was beautiful to feel for a second. Damn…… its beautiful to remember that I can bring this back anytime I want. Nothing in life Is for certain, love it, then let it pass, love it because it will soon end-clarity in loving the moment as it is occurring---this is god---right now----god is right in front of you, handing you the universe on a platter---just accept it. Say yes… say yes. Say yes right now-breathe deep down inside of my body my body---only a physical representation of this mind and soul spirit that lies inside where no one can reach---eyes are just a small portal inside-but I cant let you all in I cant let you all the way in, maybe----just for a second---no---it hurts sorry--- stop it your joggin on my heart take it easy---I love you-----do you love me??? ME??? My hair-knees-nose-sneeze-clothes-keys-cash money, what makes me??? You make me?? Perhaps---I made some lemonade today- it was yellow, then grey when light was dimmed--- not yellow anymore but grey---my lemonade is grey. My shirt is black in the dark--- but green when there is light to reflect off the avocado-green light reflections of perceptions---all reflections---nothing more---what’s life; never a bore-sights are only there to test your true ability to reason and love for no reason at all take it here---its right here… there you go. Take it, and love it and use it and abuse it and throw it away and dust it off and reuse it and fix it and change it and rearrange it and derange pas tendresse-tenderness inside of me takes me down to paradise city lights become my stars because they drown out planets of truth in the skies off my roof I fall into the proof of unearthly untimely unsatissfyingly dire needs dire straights and not so-straights are lovely diving in and out and everywhere inbetween up and down and all around like dolphins through water taking up the fact of slaughterhouse rules take me back-wow this place is really familiar-it seems like heaven-only closer and wow-its so easy to create-just think---and do---manifest and elevate into the next presence of psychological dimensional philosophical non-cents-dollars are collars take it from you lively passions in the theatre are yours already----don’t wish--- just manifest----- imagination is not just a figment---imagination is the ability to create and believe and live magically love magically--- wow… magic… wow…. Like the stars surrounding us in five million billion galaxies taking one century to tell me where to go and what to do with my life-now I know now I remember---its here to open-its here to open yourself to others to love to life to you to me to us---there is no them, only us…. Only you and all your ME’s within you… wow…. Take a second, back in this body…. Shit---leave body one more time… here we gooooooo----down the ages of time space continuity like sands on the roads of hourglass time of the widow weeping willow taken down for another pound of spoonfilled tons laughing like honey bees in the meadow suckling at the flowers teet…mmmmm I want some---chocolate milk..soy… so i….. so I lie… so I lay hear…. So I lay here inn, so I lay here in bed and stare up at the ceiling and wonder whats on the other side of the glass taken down a notch off the ladder only for second do I realize you’re not really here, you’re there away away okay, okay I love you.

--Anthony.Ray.AppleSauce